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killawithme

killawithme

empty.
Jan 2, 2026
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for a long time my life didn't have a purpose (it still doesn't lol)
does anyone share this with me?
 
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Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
114
Sounds more like you're describing absurdism than nihilism? Nihilism, formally, is the rejection of principles ("belief in nothing"). It's a non-belief, so assigning any value to it is no longer nihilism. Absurdism is the belief that the universe is purposeless and chaotic.

That said, I relate to you. I view the world as being an autonomous machine that churns on and follows its processes and laws without any viction or intention; anything we humans may assign to it is simply projecting our experiences onto a blank canvas, including the search for/lamentation of purpose. I was massively purposeless and apathetic for the better part of my youth, and I only recently found something that interests me enough to pursue. In a sense, that is my chosen "purpose" now.

Even so, no matter how much I may enjoy myself, or the accomplishments I may make, or the accolades I acquire... I know deep down, in the back of my mind, that it's all play-pretend. It is more humbling than despairing, though.
 
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amor.dor

amor.dor

Ghost
Dec 24, 2025
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Our lives are mere phenomena , like a leaf falling or a supernova. The human ego created rhetoric, religion, and meaning so humanity could feel important.
I don't think life is meaningless; beyond being a means for the universe to wear itself out through each synthesis, I personally believe that, as a race, we take the game too seriously.
I think much of depression comes from this: from people who believed too deeply in the words of others , be it parents, religion, or idealism.
When you realize what life truly is, nihilism arrives because there's still a part of us that wants to believe in life's ideal. But after that, what comes is existential boredom.
I myself live only out of curiosity. But this "game" has a very strong anchor: pain.Perhaps in this illusory existence, the most real thing is pain.
For me, I'll live as long as the pain or the boredom isn't too strong. Otherwise, I'll simply log out of the game of life and enter the eternal night.
 
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killawithme

killawithme

empty.
Jan 2, 2026
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Sounds more like you're describing absurdism than nihilism? Nihilism, formally, is the rejection of principles ("belief in nothing"). It's a non-belief, so assigning any value to it is no longer nihilism. Absurdism is the belief that the universe is purposeless and chaotic.

That said, I relate to you. I view the world as being an autonomous machine that churns on and follows its processes and laws without any viction or intention; anything we humans may assign to it is simply projecting our experiences onto a blank canvas, including the search for/lamentation of purpose. I was massively purposeless and apathetic for the better part of my youth, and I only recently found something that interests me enough to pursue. In a sense, that is my chosen "purpose" now.

Even so, no matter how much I may enjoy myself, or the accomplishments I may make, or the accolades I acquire... I know deep down, in the back of my mind, that it's all play-pretend. It is more humbling than despairing, though.
I looked it up again they are very close to each other but your right.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
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To me, nihilism just removes obligation. I'm not failing a higher purpose, I'm not late to some destiny, and I don't owe the universe optimism or any productivity. That's a bit freeing, not depressing.
Nothing has its inherent meaning. No built-in purpose, no cosmic assignments.
If nothing inherently matters, then I get to decide what does. That's agency...not despair.
So yeah, nihilism doesn't make life pointless for me. It just means life never came with a point in the first place.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,704
I could just never see any point to any of this, this existence to me will always be the most terrible mistake that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I see the existence of life as the most cruel, devastating tragedy that only ever tortures existing beings all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

The fact that humans continue to force this onto others is just so terrible and dreadful, all that existence does is just cause so much unnecessary, dreadful suffering, to exist means to suffer and every second is torture to be conscious, it truly is horrifying how much harm existence causes and will continue to do, to me existence is just so evil, existence itself will always be the true problem, for me non-existence truly is all that I see as positive.
 
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killawithme

killawithme

empty.
Jan 2, 2026
19
I could just never see any point to any of this, this existence to me will always be the most terrible mistake that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I see the existence of life as the most cruel, devastating tragedy that only ever tortures existing beings all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

The fact that humans continue to force this onto others is just so terrible and dreadful, all that existence does is just cause so much unnecessary, dreadful suffering, to exist means to suffer and every second is torture to be conscious, it truly is horrifying how much harm existence causes and will continue to do, to me existence is just so evil, existence itself will always be the true problem, for me non-existence truly is all that I see as positive.
we humans just have to kill each other for some reason while someone who wants to end it gets stopped.
 
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Ajaq

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Dec 17, 2025
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I think its makes more sence then anything else
 
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