spellbound
My Great Guilt
- Apr 25, 2026
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Fair warning I'm drunk rn so what I'm saying might as well be nonsense
Ever since forever I've had a pretty rhetorical mind and I always loved to think logically about whatever was happening
Over the years, I've given myself a myriad of reasons to catch the bus, mainly, that I want to kill myself to reach enlightenment (as I've discussed in other posts)
I guess my question is how do I know if this is what I truly believe in or if I'm just coping trynna give my suicide a logical reason even tho it's coming off purely from abstract sentiments.
Mostly idk if I truly believe what I say I believe or if I'm feeling strong suicidal tendencies for no reason and I'm trying to explain them rationally even tho there's nothing to explain
Sometimes I feel like I'm making up excuses to kill myself
Why tho
Why would I need to make up a reason ?
Please help me gents
Ever since forever I've had a pretty rhetorical mind and I always loved to think logically about whatever was happening
Over the years, I've given myself a myriad of reasons to catch the bus, mainly, that I want to kill myself to reach enlightenment (as I've discussed in other posts)
I guess my question is how do I know if this is what I truly believe in or if I'm just coping trynna give my suicide a logical reason even tho it's coming off purely from abstract sentiments.
Mostly idk if I truly believe what I say I believe or if I'm feeling strong suicidal tendencies for no reason and I'm trying to explain them rationally even tho there's nothing to explain
Sometimes I feel like I'm making up excuses to kill myself
Why tho
Why would I need to make up a reason ?
Please help me gents
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