Well, gonna CTB tonight

[Éternel]

Hi guys,
I've never posted here, I thought that I would recover and that my family would finally help me.

NOPE ! They did not, they made worse. But it's alright, it's alright, I'm not good enough for them, they said it multiple times.

I don't have time to write my story. It was pretty much just violent verbal abuse since early childhood and one violent beating in 2024.

Maybe my friends will find this account and write my story. I don't know. I'm sorry for them, I loved them too.

So, I guess, it was good being alive. I can't stand the verbal abuse anymore though, my mind is dead.

Love you guys, love you a lot. Love<3

- R. Éternel

 

[Jun123]

Hi, I'm sorry your parents were this shitty to you, you don't deserve that.

I wish you nothing but the best and hope you find your peace

 

[doomedbynarrative]

I'm sorry your parents treated you like that. No child deserves that. You certainly don't either. You're worthy of help as you are.

 

[dewdfish]

I'm sorry it has come to that. I hope you reach peace <3

 

[darksouls]

love and peace to you

 

[gravestone]

You are in no way to blame for what happened.
I send you love and wish you peace ♡

 

[idontlikethehouse44]

goodbye man, I wish u the best after what you gone through. It was never your fault.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[Éternel]

Hi guys,
I've never posted here, I thought that I would recover and that my family would finally help me.

NOPE ! They did not, they made worse. But it's alright, it's alright, I'm not good enough for them, they said it multiple times.

I don't have time to write my story. It was pretty much just violent verbal abuse since early childhood and one violent beating in 2024.

Maybe my friends will find this account and write my story. I don't know. I'm sorry for them, I loved them too.

So, I guess, it was good being alive. I can't stand the verbal abuse anymore though, my mind is dead.

Love you guys, love you a lot. Love<3

- R. Éternel

Re, I couldn't do it. My lamp(?) didn't support my weight for some reason... So, I'm going to wait a bit for a better opportunity...
- R. Éternel

Re, I couldn't do it. My lamp(?) didn't support my weight for some reason... So, I'm going to wait a bit for a better opportunity...
- R. Éternel

Thank you all for your responds, it's quite touching to think some actually care.

 

[ummagumma]

im very sorry you didnt deserve that treatment

have you tried to stop communicating with your family? move out? sorry for dumb question, im just sad that such gentle soul suffers so much

 

[Éternel]

im very sorry you didnt deserve that treatment

have you tried to stop communicating with your family? move out? sorry for dumb question, im just sad that such gentle soul suffers so much

It's alright, I'm already beginning to forget what happened

Well, I tried a lot of times since childhood to stop communicating but well I doesn't work and just makes things worse
Plus, I'm only 18, so even if I'm technically an adult I don't have any money (my parents never saved up for me when I was a kid) to move out and nobody's hiring. Right now, the best I can do is the thing I've always did : wait.

I talked to very close friends, they weren't really happy to hear that I tried to CTB, but they're trying to help me.
I can't go to a psychiatric hospital due to the fact that, I still live with my parents and I can't risk having to income.

Right now, my only exit door is my affectation to uni next year. Since I live near Paris, I'm going to try to go to the south of France to reconstruct myself, far away from my family but still having their money.

Thank you for caring<3