well fuck that

[Soulless Angel]

My heads a fucking mess, I rarely post here now, knowing what I want to do, but meh, timings and never been left alone because my husband wouldn't allow me to be alone, but now I am alone, so very fucking alone,
I had my husband arrested tonight for domestic abuse, it was the right thing but feels so fucking wrong,
I need to get through tonight, but I don't want a future, I have no wish for one, what is there out there when you just get shat on all the time.
jumping was m preferred option, but hanging may be the only sure way not to get found,
Its strange, I hate what I have done today, but knowing now, I can set a path that I want with no interference, makes me feel calm? And people say suicidal people are depressed and bad etc, how is it bad when the reality of knowing its in your hands and the only person stopping you is you, then surely thats my own right?

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's common for people to feel calm and relieved at having an exit plan. They no longer feel trapped in this world. I understand not wanting a future. To me it's terrible the way that many people treat others, I hope that you find relief from your situation.

 

[takemenowpls]

At the end of the day he is still your husband. People make mistakes, I'm sure he still loves you. That is why you feel awful. I'm sorry you are going through this though.