Weekend Suicides

[StarryStarry]

This weekend I read about two suicides. One in the state where I live - a 50 year old woman who according to her obituary had everything going for her and the man in charge of Marta in Atlanta, GA. He stood in front of a train. I'm envious but torn. They are no longer in any pain, no one can ever hurt them again - no worries. But there's this stupid little voice in my head that keeps telling me to keep going - keep going. I've had this battle for so long. I'm so tired of the battle between life and death. I've heard that people who decided to ctb are at peace with their decision, there are no doubts in their mind. They live out their time the way they want. So why do I keep questioning my survival?

 

[Faraknur]

Well it could be one of two things and sometimes they correlate. Either your Survival Instinct is not degraded enough by the suffering that you cant bring yourself to do it.
Or you have deep down something you want to do. You could ruminate on that a while. But if you dont find anything then you either have to just do it even if your body screams he wants to live or wait a while until your body really does not have the strength to scream anymore. I hope whatever you decide will bring you peace. Love you :)

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are tired of everything. When I hear about people who ctb, I am always envious as they had the courage to end their suffering and they are now at peace. Whatever happens, I wish you the best. I can imagine it must be tiring being trapped between life and death.

 

[Crazy4u]

"had everything going for her" is a funny statement. I don't know what to say

 

[StarryStarry]

"had everything going for her" is a funny statement. I don't know what to say

I agree. Why does someone kill themself if they have everything going for them? I would assume that they were clueless as to this woman's pain. They didn't have a funeral.

 

[Snake of Eden]

"had everything going for her" is a funny statement. I don't know what to say

It sounds more like objection and whining than something that should go into an obituary

 

[StarryStarry]

It sounds more like objection and whining than something that should go into an obituar

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It sounds more like objection and whining than something that should go into an obituary

I think it took them by surprise and they had no clue - typical response. I hope she has peace now.

 

[Hurt]

I will probably ctb on a weekend. Feel more suicidal because everyone has a life weekend but I dont. It sucks.