Not only do I find life garbage but I am just far more interested in death as a whole. I don't mean this in a dark, edgy sort of way, I'm just always amazed at how people can be so upbeat and zesty over what goes in life. What's the point? We get maybe 80 years of turmoil, struggle, poverty and despair on this ball of mud. As if that's anything to be excited about. Even if we have it relatively good on Earth, it's all so fleeting while death is presumably eternal. It all feels like I'm playing a pointless game of eye spy while I'm at the bus stop. And now I'm bored of it and am like "okay, when's the fucking bus getting here?"