Wanting to disappear

[dontleavemehanging]

Has anyone also just wanted to be erased completely? Or to just vanish without a trace?

Death just isn't enough. I want everything about myself gone. I don't want anyone to remember me or even think of me. Everything I've done is just a huge mistake. My life itself feels like an anomaly in the system.

 

[fishperson]

The system doesnt exist without u , u are the system. The system only exists because u perceive it. The moment u die the system dissappears because the only way for it to exist is for u to perceive it

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, it's all I want, I want it to be like I never suffered in this torturous, dreadful and cruel existence at all, I just want to disappear from this existence I just always saw as such a terrible mistake that just causes all this harm, suffering and torture with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, this existence just never should had been imposed and it's the most terrible, devastating tragedy how it was.

To me existence is an abomination and all I want is to erase this existence, for me only never suffering ever again could ever be positive, all I want is peace from the suffering, torture and evil of existing and there's just so much evil in existing with existing beings in agony every second, to me existence is just always the problem, all I want is for all to be forgotten for me, I just want peace from the torture of existing, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all.