Wanting death became a life purpose

[Foreversad]

Wanting to die became the only solid reason im staying alive reaschering how to do this and trying at this point ever since been sick .the only idea gives me pleaseure ans its actually giving me straight that i can plan it .anyone related ?

 

[wereqryan]

Yeah I can totally relate. I'm motivated by the thought of ending my constant agony and despair. Ironically, I've never felt more alive since I made suicide my life goal.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I spend a lot of time thinking about death and ending my life. I think for me its just knowing there is a way out. My death is the one thing I can have control over.

 

[Foreversad]

Yes, I spend a lot of time thinking about death and ending my life. I think for me its just knowing there is a way out. My death is the one thing I can have control over.

Yeah I can totally relate. I'm motivated by the thought of ending my constant agony and despair. Ironically, I've never felt more alive since I made suicide my life goal.

Couldnt ever agree more and let those lucky stupid bitches believe that life is a gift .either they are super stupid optimistic or they were such lucky or faking it hesitating to admit they'd wish for death too

Couldnt ever agree more and let those lucky stupid bitches believe that life is a gift .either they are super stupid optimistic or they were such lucky or faking it hesitating to admit they'd wish for death too

Never ever felt more alive than creating my way out .NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS .SOCIETIES MAKING PROFIT GOVERNMENT AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF KEEPING US ALIVE SO TO SELL MEDICINES .QUITE A PROFIT TO KEEP PEOPLE ALIVE SO THAT BIG PHARMA HAS MONEY

 

[Arrow]

I can understand that, and I used to get the same feeling of relief or pleasure from knowing I can plan my end, and make it come to me instead of waiting for it. But recently I have begun to feel more unsure. I saw dying as a relief to pain, and even though I might still feel as though I don't want to be alive, to die wouldn't actually be the relief I think it is—relief is when I experience the absence of pain. What will happen to me when I can't actually experience anything at all? I don't actually get my relief, do I? I am a computer being shut down, and I won't ever really be free. My existence and all notions about it are gone.

Not sure who relates to this, maybe others would find this disagreeable. After realizing all of this I can't say I would ever be afraid of going to hell, because I surely am already in it. Due to the unknowns, though, death could be better than this after all, but would I ever know?

 

[Foreversad]

I can understand that, and I used to get the same feeling of relief or pleasure from knowing I can plan my end, and make it come to me instead of waiting for it. But recently I have begun to feel more unsure. I saw dying as a relief to pain, and even though I might still feel as though I don't want to be alive, to die wouldn't actually be the relief I think it is—relief is when I experience the absence of pain. What will happen to me when I can't actually experience anything at all? I don't actually get my relief, do I? I am a computer being shut down, and I won't ever really be free. My existence and all notions about it are gone.

Not sure who relates to this, maybe others would find this disagreeable. After realizing all of this I can't say I would ever be afraid of going to hell, because I surely am already in it. Due to the unknowns, though, death could be better than this after all, but would I ever know?

Βeing once inthe same boat .but hell is here man .just right here .nothing at all after .no god would test for suffering his kids .no loving god would .its not a matter of god .he/she may exist but they never would create such a mess and pain worldwide .i strongly believe this .i had this existance issue before .i was like 'well i wont be existing' .
I thought it through and i was like ' yeah boy ,at some point its going to happen naturally after so much pain in agony and under bad really bad circumstances' .i strongly believe we had a choice right here not really grew on a tree ,we hava opinions ,we feel we decide .if this free will was offered by governments people would obtain their right to die at their own terms and as a result the dynamics of the society would be disordered . something much like if people would easily get away with theft .everyone then would like to 'eat the apple ' and steal .it would be a norm . something forbidden on the other hand keeps the society down well formed to obay the ones in charge and their profits .thats why we are not allowed to the most basichuman right .live and death .so to solve your existencial suffering . nothing would otherwise come after our death the point is for how much we endure pain and conditions we disguish and dont think serve our life or find unacceptable.so the answer is nothing comes from nothing you just stop experiencing health problem or mental or injustice cruel society or whatever your reason .and also we mean nothing to the others except our loving ones who would notice

 

[wereqryan]

let those lucky stupid bitches believe that life is a gift .either they are super stupid optimistic or they were such lucky or faking it hesitating to admit they'd wish for death too

We know the truth don't we? We know that life doesn't improve, rather it only declines with age.

 

[Foreversad]

We know the truth don't we? We know that life doesn't improve, rather it only declines with age.

Not just age .im lees than 30 living the life of 70's

 

[Lost Magic]

I know that survival instinct (and some forms of entertainment) is the main thing keeping me alive right now. I just hope that any future attempts to ctb aren't botched. I couldn't bare a worse life than this.