Wanting a positive from my suicide

[PerfectVictory]

I struggle with the idea that my suicide will mean that my life was a negative for everyone I encountered especially those I loved. That's why I wish there was a way to make something positive out of my suicide. Unfortunately life insurance is complicated to get anything out of unless you already have a good job and can do it discretely. I wish there were billionaires who would pay to hunt me down or use my life in some way that isn't too painful if it left my friends and family with millions. I wish I could be a martyr of some sort so that my suicide and I would be regarded positively by those who remember me. But no such opportunity presents itself. Or if there could be a game like squid games I would sign up in a heart beat although there is no way I would win I could atleast show kindness to a competitor in my death and the games themselves seem pretty thrilling.

 

[Mr.Ruben]

I've heard of a very special case where a organ donor gave his life to someone in need, which technically breaks the oath to not harm a healthy patient.
in conclusion, if you really want to go, save someone who doesn't want to die in your way. (not specifically from organ donor, but anything that could save a life for the better)