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[Apricity]

I'm on some xanax and a little booze. I'm sitting in my car with my tank and bag. I want to go. I've gotten to the point of getting dizzy and hyperventilating and I take the bag off. Maybe I'll just go to bed, idk.

 

[marinekiwi]

Hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[Eddypaddy]

I'm on some xanax and a little booze. I'm sitting in my car with my tank and bag. I want to go. Just trying to get the courage to turn the knob. Hopefully I don't back out again. Every day is more pain and I'm so tired of surviving in misery. I want to truly live, not survive, but it won't happen and I refuse to exist when all i have to look forward to is back pain and loneliness. Wish me luck. If I don't check back in within a few weeks, I finally gathered my balls. Fingers crossed.

Wish you the best

 

[Apricity]

I got dizzy and hyperventilated, hearing got dim, then I took the bag off. I'm a failure at life, and at death.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Don't be hard on yourself. CTB is hard to complete for some of us. Maybe right now is not the time yet. It has to be at a complete point of utter desperation

 

[Insomniac]

I'm on some xanax and a little booze. I'm sitting in my car with my tank and bag. I want to go. I've gotten to the point of getting dizzy and hyperventilating and I take the bag off. Maybe I'll just go to bed, idk.

you want to cry even on xanax? Then it has gotten to the point where even xanax can't soothe you.

May you shouldn't drive on Xanax (I've never heard anyone say that, but xanax makes you sleepy so I guess it's better to take it after your day or at night).

 

[Eternity04]

Good luck

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide is very difficult as we are programmed to survive. Many of us have had failed attempts. If it was easier to exit I would already be gone. I'm sorry you went through this. I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.

 

[Apricity]

This is my fifth or so failure in as many months. I just want to be able to do it. I wish these N sellers weren't gouging people. I'm contemplating SN but have found sourcing meto difficult or time consuming.

 

[fox_wannabe]

This is my fifth or so failure in as many months. I just want to be able to do it. I wish these N sellers weren't gouging people. I'm contemplating SN but have found sourcing meto difficult or time consuming.

Yeah I have failed many, many times too