Want to talk with a stupid bitch?

[Bedlamb]

I normally wouldn't ask because I'm shit company but I feel like I'm going crazy. I have no friends I can hit up to help. I'd be happy to listen to rants, talk about superposition, have expletives hurled at me; really anything. Only if you have nothing better to do. Sorry if this is too much to ask for...

 

[Apostle]

Of course not, there's nothing wrong with wanting to talk. I don't really have anyone to talk to either, and lately I do feel like I'm losing my mind as well, so I welcome a thread like this, personally. I'd be glad to talk to you, I'm sure many of us would. Anything you want to tell us about, to begin with?

 

[Bedlamb]

Of course not, there's nothing wrong with wanting to talk. I don't really have anyone to talk to either, and lately I do feel like I'm losing my mind as well, so I welcome a thread like this, personally. I'd be glad to talk to you, I'm sure many of us would. Anything you want to tell us about, to begin with?

I'm sorry to hear you're going through something similar. I hope you find someone better than me to talk to, but for now I'm happy to chat about anything with you. I didn't have anything specific in mind

 

[Empty Smile]

Outside of this site, I very rarely communicate with humans. I'd rather talk and argue with myself than talk to other people.

 

[Marawa]

Same boat. Being older not sure if you feel I could relate but I'm out of my mind isolated, so the need to talk is nothing unusual. Most people that haven't reached the depth of can't seem to relate or seem irked by it in my experience.

 

[Apostle]

I'm sorry too Bedlamb. You seem like a nice person already and you definitely deserve better than this. I dug this hole for myself 100% through my own idiocy and cruelty so I deserve it, but I hope things get better for you and that having people to talk to can help with that.

And, I know what you mean Empty Smile. I could never explain it to anyone in my life, but, I feel more alone around other people generally, than I do when It's just me and my mind. It is so hard to find someone who really "speaks my language," both because I'm socially fucked and because there just aren't many people who fit my frustratingly strict requirements for who I can actually enjoy being around and form a real bond with. And I've chased those people out of my life, so, this place is pretty much it for me. I am at least grateful to have the people here to talk to.

 

[Bedlamb]

Same boat. Being older not sure if you feel I could relate but I'm out of my mind isolated, so the need to talk is nothing unusual. Most people that haven't reached the depth of can't seem to relate or seem irked by it in my experience.

Sorry you're stuck in this shitty boat as well. By the way does that cake icon by your username mean it's your birthday? I'd like to wish you a happy birthday if so!

I dug this hole for myself 100% through my own idiocy and cruelty so I deserve it, but I hope things get better for you and that having people to talk to can help with that.

I'd say the same thing about myself to be honest. If it's not true of me, then I'd say it's definitely not true of you. I hope that having people to talk with here is a help for you

 

[Marawa]

Sorry you're stuck in this shitty boat as well. By the way does that cake icon by your username mean it's your birthday? I'd like to wish you a happy birthday if so!

Aww thanks. I'm not sure why I have that icon, I did turn 51 in March but it's almost May. I'm just grateful to find a community of people in similar mental state and wanted you to know I'm here as others have been for me. And in real life my crying and need to talk and connect is rebuffed by ppl who only want to see me institutionalized rn. I suspect many of us are like we are from abuse with narcissists.

 

[Apostle]

I believe it is a help, in some form or another.

I won't lie, ctb is still heavily on my mind, but even if I do it, this place will have made it a more peaceful, less lonely road to that point. And I have to be thankful for that.

 

[Bedlamb]

@Marawa Well happy belated birthday anyway. Thank you for your kindness. I'm glad you were able to find this site
@Apostle Happy to hear it helps, even if just marginally. Whatever you do decide, I hope you find peace in your decision

 

[Apostle]

Same, to you and everyone here. Above all, everyone should do what gives them peace.
People here understand that better than anyone, which ironically makes me feel a bit more alive here than anywhere else.

 

[Bedlamb]

That's what I love about this site. People here understand. They don't push living onto others because they know how it feels to have living pushed onto them.

 

[Bärchen]

Maybe try the chat on this website.

 

[lost_soul83]

I'm always here for anyone who needs to talk to someone. I feel so grateful for this community of people that just "get it." There's no one in the real world I can talk to honestly about my intentions to ctb for fear of being thrown into a hospital for an indeterminate amount of time and I refuse to give them the satisfaction of taking away my freedom when they've already taken everything else away from me. So thank you to all of you that have been kind enough to help me along the way. I'd be happy to return the favor.

 

[Bedlamb]

@lost_soul83 Thank you for caring. I completely understand the fear of being thrown in a ward, having already been multiple times. I hope this site continues to help

 

[noonetoo]

I'm an open door, figuratively. And you sound awesome :) However I'm scared to message people, rejection is painful. Most of the people I've messaged with in other chats, they never trust me enough to share yet I pour my heart out, I over share and then I feel useless because I barely know anything of them and it sucks. Feeling like sh** in real life and online, can't be accepted either.

Only 3 people have messaged me on here and they forgot about me, I keep going back to the chat to check for a response and I even follow up, however it's pointless.
I'm sorry, I don't believe how people say they are willing to talk to anyone yet they don't keep their word. Maybe I was just a form of entertainment at the moment until they found someone better to talk to. I break my own heart thinking about these things.
Or maybe I'm just that annoying and sh**y because I've felt rejected lots of times in other chat rooms, people will ignore me and then they flood the chat talking with others. Depressed people can be biased.

 

[Bedlamb]

@noonetoo I sent you a PM, hope that's ok

 

[DeathSaves]

Maybe we could get an 8ch board for chatting on the go...

 

[Alchemist]

You don't seem stupid, and I see plenty of that every day. Feel free to contact me if you want to talk, same goes to @noonetoo .

 

[DeathSaves]

Mr. Alchemist, assuming i somehow manage to get out of the inquisitorial prison i've been placed in, could you teach me a few spells? My powers have been going out of control for months while using a sacred drug, and i went as far as fucking up an entire supermarket a few times... Not to mention an entire neighborhood. Err, about two or three times so far.

 

[Alchemist]

Mr. Alchemist, assuming i somehow manage to get out of the inquisitorial prison i've been placed in, could you teach me a few spells? My powers have been going out of control for months while using a sacred drug, and i went as far as fucking up an entire supermarket a few times... Not to mention an entire neighborhood. Err, about two or three times so far.

I can teach you how to disappear a pencil xD.

 

[DeathSaves]

That could be interesting, though i'd love to learn teleportation or time stop.

 

[Apostle]

I can teach you how to disappear a pencil xD.

If you can do the Joker's version of that trick, I'm a willing volunteer.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

I reply to any PM to my best ability. Except for drugs. I know jack shit about drugs.
Not to sound like THAT kind of person, but I'm a working set of ears and will happily talk with you about whatever.

 

[Bedlamb]

@Compodulator Im not sure what you mean by "that kind of person" but I appreciate your kind offer. Thank you

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Outside of this site, I very rarely communicate with humans. I'd rather talk and argue with myself than talk to other people.

Same here dude. Whenever I get unlucky enough to get trapped in a conversation I try to end it in the fastest nicest way possible.

 

[Empty Smile]

Same here dude. Whenever I get unlucky enough to get trapped in a conversation I try to end it in the fastest nicest way possible.

Me too.... And if the conversation is about religion, I just walk away. No matter how rude they think I am.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

@Compodulator Im not sure what you mean by "that kind of person" but I appreciate your kind offer. Thank you

There's a certain... type... of people. Mostly on reddit or discord at PatchGaming. They keep saying "if you feel like you need to talk with somebody, just dm me :D" and proceed to either not respond at all or try their best to get out of the conversation as soon as possible.

 

[Apostle]

In this case, I like to think that if someone's serious enough to be on this site, they're serious enough to not be that type of person. I'm sure there are a few, because yeah there are a lot of those people in general, but overall this doesn't seem like a place where those people will dominate. Hopefully.