Want to kill myself die to conspiracy of others

[bhaloo]

Does anyone else feel that they are a victim of a global conspiracy? I feel that everyone I meet is a paid actor whose job is to act friendly and courteous in front of me but behind my back file a police complaint against me.

I live my live oblivious of this while the complains mount and mount. Everyone tells the same lie to the authorities. In the end they believe everything they hear because everyone is making the same complain as a orchestrated compaign.

In the end I have no way to disprove their lies.

How could this be that so many people work for the same cause. I never harmed anyone but I feel everyone is against me.
If a 1000 people tell the same lie against me … it will be treated as the truth.
I don't know what can I do except CTB. I feel the walls are closing in. No one would ever care to hear my truth

 

[behindtheveil]

Speak your truth. Here you can. No judgements, no harm only a friendly group of members who more or less are in the same boat.

 

[iguazo falls]

yeah i feel similar, especially with everyone at work or anywhere i frequent spying on me and building reports. i feel like ctb too but i feel like they are trying to get me to ctb in weird ways as entertainment.

 

[bhaloo]

For me there is nothing to build a report on. They just come to me as a stranger but they know everything about me. They answer questions which are fully in alignment with my personalty. As if they were briefed about me and then sent to me to pretend to be a friend or something. But in reality right after meeting me they file false allegations. Everyone files the same allegation so that a 1000 lies becomes one truth .

After all if 1000 people say the same thing then it must be right.