Want to ctb so bad but now not sure if i can

[Preparingforpeace]

I've posted before about my situation.
Fell into depression, destroyed my relationship. Devastated me.

Not my only reason to ctb but a big one.

Can't physically separate as too intertwined.

Hurts every day.

Had failed attempts.

Found out "ex" is drinking.
Figure I'm gonna ctb anyway, maybe it'll be her wake up call.

Now I find out she's pregnant.

Crap. What now.

 

[lionetta12]

I've posted before about my situation.
Fell into depression, destroyed my relationship. Devastated me.

Not my only reason to ctb but a big one.

Can't physically separate as too intertwined.

Hurts every day.

Had failed attempts.

Found out "ex" is drinking.
Figure I'm gonna ctb anyway, maybe it'll be her wake up call.

Now I find out she's pregnant.

Crap. What now.

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles, pain and failed attemps. I advise you to not do anything irrational if possible and to think things over before you choose to try to CTB, if it ends up with that. Best to make choices like that when you have a clear head and have thought about it all and everything that's going in general with your relationship. But I know that can be difficult if you already feel quite ready to CTB.

Hope you're able to figure out what you want and what to do next.

 

[Preparingforpeace]

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles, pain and failed attemps. I advise you to not do anything irrational if possible and to think things over before you choose to try to CTB, if it ends up with that. Best to make choices like that when you have a clear head and have thought about it all and everything that's going in general with your relationship. But I know that can be difficult if you already feel quite ready to CTB.

Hope you're able to figure out what you want and what to do next.

Yeah, I am ready to go, just 1 more day.

Now this.

And she has found a new guy to be with. Which I think they were gonna try to raise the baby as theirs, because our relationship was so broken.

It's an absolute mess. And I really need to talk to someone and figure this out.

 

[lionetta12]

Yeah, I am ready to go, just 1 more day.

Now this.

And she has found a new guy to be with. Which I think they were gonna try to raise the baby as theirs, because our relationship was so broken.

It's an absolute mess. And I really need to talk to someone and figure this out.

Damn, yeah it sounds like a difficult situation. I'm dealing with something similar just that I'm the one getting positive pregnancy tests but my ex left me last week so I'm on my own, but ready to CTB tomorrow basically.

 

[Preparingforpeace]

Damn, yeah it sounds like a difficult situation. I'm dealing with something similar just that I'm the one getting positive pregnancy tests but my ex left me last week so I'm on my own, but ready to CTB tomorrow basically.

She doesn't know I've figured it out.

 

[lionetta12]

She doesn't know I've figured it out.

That makes it a bit tricker of a situation, I'm so sorry that you have to go through that. Are you able to try and talk to her about it?

 

[Preparingforpeace]

That makes it a bit tricker of a situation, I'm so sorry that you have to go through that. Are you able to try and talk to her about it?

I'm going to have to.

Care to pm? I can talk more

 

[lionetta12]

I'm going to have to.

Care to pm? I can talk more

Yeah sure, my inbox is open to anyone on this site so go ahead.

 

[Preparingforpeace]

Yeah sure, my inbox is open to anyone on this site so go ahead.

Just sent one

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are going through all this. Living really is so painful and I know that it's hard to carry on existing when you suffer. I hope that you find relief from your situation in whatever happens.

 

[Snatsbats]

Are you sure she is pregnant with your kid? Could be from another man. I would do a DNA test once the child is born.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Are you sure she is pregnant with your kid? Could be from another man. I would do a DNA test once the child is born.

There are actually non invasive prenatal tests available now. No risk to the mother or baby.
Idk how much they are, though.

 

[Snatsbats]

There are actually non invasive prenatal tests available now. No risk to the mother or baby.
Idk how much they are, though.

Wow, didnt know that. Thats handy

 

[Hollowillow]

I've posted before about my situation.
Fell into depression, destroyed my relationship. Devastated me.

Not my only reason to ctb but a big one.

Can't physically separate as too intertwined.

Hurts every day.

Had failed attempts.

Found out "ex" is drinking.
Figure I'm gonna ctb anyway, maybe it'll be her wake up call.

Now I find out she's pregnant.

Crap. What now.

I'm too dumb to give advice... But I don't understand how going to the eternal sleep can wake someone up. Especially since people who know people who did S are more likely to do it too.

Can the kid be yours? Feel free to contact her. Maybe?

I don't think you destroyed your relationship by being depressed. But "we can only share what we already have" so I chose to stay single until I blossom more... Because I got tired of my codependency & sucking each other's soul away. I wanted to figure myself & my life out... Fix issues & trauma. But I never could alone.

I don't know what happened... But I think she drinks because she tries to cope with her own depression. I don't think I could handle a lover who is person depressed like me, I can't even save myself, it'd break my heart to be unable to comfort a loved one & watch them suffer. I could break up out of helplesness & self loathing. If the lover was awesome, I'd break up feeling like an unworthy burden. So unless you were violent in some way, I don't think being sad or hurt ruin relationships. Good people stay... But easier said than done...

I don't think depression ruined my life. I think depression is how it feels when life seems ruined. I fought hard to improve it, just to see it get broken harder. I'm tired...

Sometimes it's best to stay out of the way... Sometimes offering help as a friend might be kind... I don't know, my last lover was 20 years ago...

But I'd be curious to know if the baby was mine... I don't think I want a mini me to suffer life after I'm gone... But children can bring the best out of people sometimes.

 

[Funeralprincess]

I've posted before about my situation.
Fell into depression, destroyed my relationship. Devastated me.

Not my only reason to ctb but a big one.

Can't physically separate as too intertwined.

Hurts every day.

Had failed attempts.

Found out "ex" is drinking.
Figure I'm gonna ctb anyway, maybe it'll be her wake up call.

Now I find out she's pregnant.

Crap. What now.

I lost the love of my life due to my mental health too and he was the best man I had. It is a big reason for me to CTB as well and
People don't understand, but HE is the love of my life. Everyday I am deeply saddened by it… if your ex has moved on and gotten pregnant, she won't truly care if you're gone and that's what is so soul crushing. I had to save up and go for N as a method because all
My other harsher attempts have failed. I pray you find a solution to whatever you decide