Venting Walking alone in the night , during the "festival" season . Maybe do mind reading this dumbass sob story

[lunar02102009]

Just walking alone in the night , In India its supposed to be Diwali tomorrow so everyone's celebrating lighting fireworks and the whole deal , people look happy with each other , couples are well even happier as they have someone to comfort and hug them warm and tight during their well not so good moments , meanwhile I am just..suffering in silence , cold and lonely along with no one to comfort me . I might as well just celebrate the festival lighting cigarettes. I just wonder if i get hit by a car and die on the spot , will i ever be happy with all the warm and tight hugs? I dont think so but oh well , ig it is what it is . I wish to have that feeling one day or just die and maybe go somewhere better or stop existing . Its amazing arent it? Some people have everything they want and others dont. I thank you for reading if you have , if you havent well who gives a shit im jus another random ass dude venting on here nothing special. Anyway people have always left me , i have never left anyone so i guess theres something wrong with me ig. Here is a quote that i will never get to say to anyone and which describes my dumbass sob stories.





"You and I are perfect for each other , never believe anything else"





"Du und ich sind perfekt füreinander. Niemals gab es zwei Menschen, die sich so sehr liebten wie wir. Glaub niemals etwas anderes."

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

Somthing eternal,,
Your words captured the hollow ache you experienced during this perfectly. Surrounded by joy, yet profoundly alone...
That sentiment about never leaving anyone,,
it's a quiet torture.
That quote is devastatingly hopefully bittersweet, Thank you for sharing your sorrow,,,Lamp,, it resonates with me even while coming from completely different circumstances yet i can relate to those late night smoke walks during festival times, your pain expressed here on sasu it feels remarkably understood, im not you so I cant claim understand,, but in my own way do..

I feel resignation with your post,,you clearly want to have something real, and like you , i still lack that something "real" that seemingly no one truly wants,,
I tend to be to nihilistic for my own good, because again like you and your loneliness,, i too am still alone.

I have nothing hopful to share myself but I cant help but feel for your pain..

 

[lunar02102009]

Somthing eternal,,
Your words captured the hollow ache you experienced during this perfectly. Surrounded by joy, yet profoundly alone...
That sentiment about never leaving anyone,,
it's a quiet torture.
That quote is devastatingly hopefully bittersweet, Thank you for sharing your sorrow,,,Lamp,, it resonates with me even while coming from completely different circumstances yet i can relate to those late night smoke walks during festival times, your pain expressed here on sasu it feels remarkably understood, im not you so I cant claim understand,, but in my own way do..

I feel resignation with your post,,you clearly want to have something real, and like you , i still lack that something "real" that seemingly no one truly wants,,
I tend to be to nihilistic for my own good, because again like you and your loneliness,, i too am still alone.

I have nothing hopful to share myself but I cant help but feel for your pain..

Im grateful that you even read this , you dont know how much it means to me . I am grateful that SaSu exists it doesnt well heal but atleast it helps to reduce the pain a tiny bit because of the support. We are together but alone at the same time. Maybe if i didnt be myself i wouldnt have been suicidal but everyone says "be yourself" and when you do...things just get worse and you are left all alone. I just want to stop the pain. I do not know if you have watced "Dark" but it is just.. well i will let you be the judge of that maybe try watching it once.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

Im grateful that you even read this , you dont know how much it means to me . I am grateful that SaSu exists it doesnt well heal but atleast it helps to reduce the pain a tiny bit because of the support. We are together but alone at the same time. Maybe if i didnt be myself i wouldnt have been suicidal but everyone says "be yourself" and when you do...things just get worse and you are left all alone. I just want to stop the pain. I do not know if you have watced "Dark" but it is just.. well i will let you be the judge of that maybe try watching it once.

Yea ill this one ?


I'll check it out and tell you how I feel about it, yea?


And your words are always welcome here, it cant stop the sting for all but its somthing thats comforting to at least have access to.

 

[lunar02102009]

Yea ill this one ?
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I'll check it out and tell you how I feel about it, yea?


And your words are always welcome here, it cant stop the sting for all but its somthing thats comforting to at least have access to.

Yeah that one .it never gives your relief just like our lives , its somewhat relatable in a not so good way

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

You shouldn't feel bad for the "sob story".
You're hurting and I can relate to that. Fuck what people say, even if they don't want to take how you feel seriously, It's a deep type of pain in your chest that hits you in these moments that make you wish you had a function in your brain to unplug it right then and there like a TV.

I hate that feeling so much. I try to minimize experiencing that feeling as much as possible.

 

[lunar02102009]

You shouldn't feel bad for the "sob story".
You're hurting and I can relate to that. Fuck what people say, even if they don't want to take how you feel seriously, It's a deep type of pain in your chest that hits you in these moments that make you wish you had a function in your brain to unplug it right then and there like a TV.

I hate that feeling so much. I try to minimize experiencing that feeling as much as possible.

everytime i see people especially couples who are happy together my body aches..i just wish i had never been in any relationships my mental health is horrible and on top of that dealing with a break up from someone whom i loved more than i should have.