OhBother
new day new suffering
- Mar 21, 2021
- 19
I thought you would be able to post on your own page instead of the thread. I'll just write a journal entry since I'm having an episode again. I just hate myself. I have much disappointment in how I failed my attempt and how I'm still here. I feel exhausted from the constant fake emotions I have to put on to avoid being forced back to the hospitals. I'm not hurting anyone, not even myself by wanting to leave this planet. I was told lies about how things will get better. Maybe for some but not all. If anything I would be just prolonging my suffering. I just want to sleep forever and never wake up. When will this torment end? I would be fine with just my 23 years. If only death wasn't so complicated as I make it.
