Had an appointment with mental health services today, technically second one overall, the first was in January.
Same shit. Was asked a bunch of questions. I answered them the best I could. Even down to having plans based on the needs in that moment. And how it's bad and then bad bad. The doc was really nice. She pretty much said that I will probably just do some grounding shit. The appointment didn't even last 20 minutes and I can't say I'm disappointed but every time I there is a stupid sliver of hope that I can be better.
I feel like there's nothing wrong with me like this thing is just something I've made up in my mind. I could ctb today there's nothing to stop me. How long is this cycle going to continue. It will never stop until I ctb.
Same shit. Was asked a bunch of questions. I answered them the best I could. Even down to having plans based on the needs in that moment. And how it's bad and then bad bad. The doc was really nice. She pretty much said that I will probably just do some grounding shit. The appointment didn't even last 20 minutes and I can't say I'm disappointed but every time I there is a stupid sliver of hope that I can be better.
I feel like there's nothing wrong with me like this thing is just something I've made up in my mind. I could ctb today there's nothing to stop me. How long is this cycle going to continue. It will never stop until I ctb.
