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RoseGarden

RoseGarden

Alone & Unloved
Apr 10, 2024
97
I feel like I'm never actually wanted unless I hide parts of myself. I have to hide the trauma of else people call me sad, manipulative, or abusive. I have to hide the neurodivergency or else I'm called annoying and narcissistic. I have to hide the transness or else cis people ostracize me. I have to hide the asexuality or else potential lovers ignore me.

should I just disappear? just isolate myself until there's no one left to grieve and just fucking off myself. it's clear that no one wants me. would they be happier if I was dead?
I'm always going to have to hide parts of myself from others. I will never get to be myself. I will die without everyone ever knowing the real me.
 
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