Venting TW: self harm. Really wanting to self harm

[madbananas]

I feel like everything is building up again and I'm going to have another major crisis.
I wish I weren't such an outsider because the only people who I talk to can't understand.
I don't want it to get to the stage where I'm banging my head and cutting my wrists, arms, neck, legs etc but I feel it's going to happen but there's no safe space I can do it or people I can talk to about it and actually get help. Still have my rope sitting in my wardrobe which I really want to use but scared of failing. Also kind of scared of actually dying just in case it's not all peaceful when dead.

 

[Trayus]

If you had someone to talk to, what would you tell them? Would you want them to understand you? Stop you? Encourage you?

If you need help in getting help, you can always reach out here - nobody to judge or punish you.

 

[madbananas]

If you had someone to talk to, what would you tell them? Would you want them to understand you? Stop you? Encourage you?

If you need help in getting help, you can always reach out here - nobody to judge or punish you.

I guess I just want people to understand me and help me see things from a more positive point of view. I'm kind of stuck wanting to ctb but can't bring myself to do it so I've got no choice but to try and feel better. I only ever talk to people at my work but even then it's so superficial because I'm constantly struggling and too embarrassed to talk about my problems.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

like trayvus said, you can always talk to people on this forum.

are there any other ways for you to release your pent-up emotions? activities you can put your frustration into, like exercising?

 

[Ghost2211]

You can always talk to us. If you need a friend or want to talk feel free to message any time. If you need more positive perspective I'm super positive when stoned lol.

 

[madbananas]

like trayvus said, you can always talk to people on this forum.

are there any other ways for you to release your pent-up emotions? activities you can put your frustration into, like exercising?

Thank you Exercise would be a good idea as I need to lose weight haha

You can always talk to us. If you need a friend or want to talk feel free to message any time. If you need more positive perspective I'm super positive when stoned lol.

Thank you it's just horrible being stuck as I genuinely want to ctb but can't bring myself to do it. So I'm in a place where I end up feeling like I'm genuinely going to explode because it starts off with a build up in my head and then I erupt into a complete meltdown. I've even been having nightmares recently again so sleep isn't even much of an escape any more

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

Perhaps engaging in forums could help take your mind or going YouTube.

 

[stupid little girl]

Selfharm.pics might be a website that could help you. People talk about their connection to self harm there and people are really supportive like on here.