Story Trying writing 'the letter' to my parents.

[Blue Rose]

I tried writing the letter to my parents. At least, I will be alive in 2021. But in 2022? I am not sure.

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Time is up. I am writing this letter at my home.
Soon, I shall disappear to a vast forest in a mountain.
And at the deepest point, I will leave the world behind, peacefully.

My parents, I would like to say that so. It is NOT your fault. It is NEVER your fault!
Yes, you had loved me often and abused me often. Then I had loved you often and hated you often.
Indeed you gave me both the light and the darkness. The light was like the sun, but the darkness was stronger.
Nevertheless, I would like to say that so. It is NOT your fault. It is NEVER your fault.
I leave my world onto you on my accord, so you have not any responsibility for my death.

Sure, you will blame yourselves. you will miss your only child so much. It makes me painful and hurt.
However my beloved, I would not like to be a burden onto you.
I have wasted too much times. In South Korea, the failure means the fatality.
I had little chances, and I was sure I would be a loser in this world forever.
I shall prevent you from my mean exploit. Fortunately, you will be able to live on in your late years on yourselves.
If there is not myself, as a burden and rubbish.

I must go now. It was bright and happy to live with you for a long time.
It was truly bright and happy to live with you for a long time.

 

[Sensei]

That's a beautiful letter. Please don't think that you're a burden, though. All sane parents want to help their children no matter what happens. They will think that they have failed because you think they see you as a burden.