Trying to hold on through one more fall-for my dad.

[Bone]

It's always been my favorite season. This time it's gonna be different because of my dying alcoholic mom and strained family relationships due to my recent psychosis. Not sure If I can push through, but perhaps seeing the leaves change will be good for me. Do any of you love fall as well?

 

[Seafoam]

I love fall. It's also my dad's favorite season. I'm holding out for my family too.

 

[FuneralCry]

It was once my favourite season, as I have always liked nature but now it is just depressing. I feel like I cannot enjoy and appreciate anything now. It must be tiring staying alive for others. I'm sorry you are suffering.

 

[Bone]

now it is just depressing

I agree and I feel that too. It used to be my absolute favorite thing but now feels fleeting and unmoving; that it is unable to get my mind off my thoughts of wanting to die. Thank you for your post and thoughts.

I love fall. It's also my dad's favorite season. I'm holding out for my family too.

I love it too but sadly this one just feels off. I dunno if I can push through for family; they're the main reason I'm so screwed up anyway. Feel like I'm running on fumes.

 

[Seafoam]

Everyone's gotta rest at some point. Being life weary is a different kind of tired. Sorry about your family.

 

[RedEther]

If you have a reason, cling to it as hard as you can. Sometimes its so strong it last long enough for us to find another, and another until hopefully we no longer need to keep clinging and we swing free

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I'm not really a fan of autumn. In Russia it's usually rainy, dirty, windy and cold. And it's rather short. Then a cold and long winter comes after.
I'm sorry your mom is dying and that you're experiencing psychosis. It sounds like a real nightmare. It's very nice of you for trying to stay for your dad. Who knows? Maybe things can and will get better for you.

 

[Green Destiny]

I do enjoy Fall. Problem is where I live it goes from hot as hell, to moderate pleasant mild fall weather for maybe 3 weeks to instantly cold so I don't really get to enjoy it.