Trying to find the words

[UrDreamz]

I have set time to have the conversation with my parents about my wishes to ctb. No I dont worry about them trying to have me put on a hold because sadly they know I will talk my way out of it. I just cant figure out the words to explain to them why. I know my reasons and truly am afraid those reasons would destroy them more than my ctb. So I am torn, i have not set the exact date yet as i have alot to do as far as clean up. They are coming to help me get rid of items this weekend and I know I need to tell them that my mind is made up on this decision. Just dont know if I can tell them the true reasons behind it. I never want them to feel as if they have failed. It was never them that failed me, it was myself and my mind.

Thanks for letting me put this here. I am hoping by writing this it will clear a space in the whirlwind I currently have going on in my mind.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

If there is no rush then you should take your time to relax and calm down as much as possible. The rest will come on its own after that. I did same talk with my mum couple of times, and being calm and mentally stable as much as possible helps alot. I wish you luck