Trying to attempt

[gasforme]

I have my nitrogen and exit bag and everything ready to go. I keep walking up and down the stairs smoking cigarettes and it's really difficult to sit in the chair and end the suffering.

My family is consumed by demons and I need to escape.

 

[behindtheveil]

Kind of in a similar boat!

 

[zdeweilx]

I guess you need to wait until the pain is so overwhelming you genuinely can't take it anymore. Then your survival instinct will be weaker than usual for a few minutes and from there it's an on-off process i think.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

SI is a bitch. That said, I think you picked one of the easiest methods for it. No hanging pain, no suddenness like with a gunshot. It seems to me that the best are those where you sit or lie down and fade away.