Trying my best not to hurt myself

[TheHatedOne]

Don't you ever feel like self harming because of all the bitterness you have regarding everything? I don't know if I'll go by this night without hurting myself with a bottle of glass in the head.

 

[Circles]

Instead hurting yourself that bad maybe try using rubber bands and flipping them as hard as you can or maybe using candles and the let the candle wax drop on your skin. The candle wax was my fav before my eyes got fucked. Hope you can have a tolerable night if you can.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Instead hurting yourself that bad maybe try using rubber bands and flipping them as hard as you can or maybe using candles and the let the candle wax drop on your skin. The candle wax was my fav before my eyes got fucked. Hope you can have a tolerable night if you can.

that wouldnt do much harm. i need to do great harm to myself.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Just gonna ramble here.

I've been "good" for over a month and it's still very difficult to try and ignore the urges. It gets physically painful. Actually hurts a lot. And then I just wanna go wild. But I've already had a few nights where I lost it to some extent and made 30, 40, 50 cuts. Is it worth it? Mm maybe. Not right now.

Spoiler: don't read this if you're struggling with cutting

Although there's still so many days where I just wanna watch the blood flow down my arm and dissociate, fuck…. sometimes I want to cut so bad that I could cry. Then it seems like everything is triggering.

I'm very sorry you're feeling this way, man. Please try to stay safe. I don't wanna tell you what to do but given how you're feeling it sounds like cutting wouldn't be a good idea.

 

[TheHatedOne]

I don't want to go by the standards like cutting, burning etc. I need to go through another way that makes me feel pain a lot, a lot.