True peace

[Krossクロス]

When I retreat to far away places in nature...it seems to be the only true peace I have. My relationships with day to day human beings is still awkard and simply depressing. On rainy days like this...I often think about swallowing all of the sleeping pills I have. But I fear surviving. I fear being on life support. The result of surviving scares me way more than dying. My world is slowly disappearing. Everything I try in society continues to fail and leaves me unsatisfied. When I go, I want it to be in a peaceful place like this. My goal is to die in Japan...but my second is here, Niagara Falls. I have read many stories of people ending their lives here. I can understand...the peaceful aura it has. Nothing else matters. Freedom. I feel with age...Nature understands me...people will always feel awkard to me. People will always treat me bizarrely....I see the way they look at me...I see the uneasy grins and giggles they give me...I hear what they say about me...Trees don't do that...the trees and river bring me pleasant dreams...Pleasant suicidal motivation

 

[Midgardsorm]

Is it you? I think most users avoid posting pictures here.

I can understand, society is cruel, we are not changing that too soon ( Or ever ). I don't know your what's going on in your mind right now. But know that you're definitely not the only one who thinks like this.

By the way, what a nice place ! I loved the view.

 

[motel rooms]

I often think about swallowing all of the sleeping pills I have. But I fear surviving. I fear being on life support. The result of surviving scares me way more than dying.

Sleeping pills are useless, sorry

 

[FuneralCry]

I would love to die in an isolated nature spot, somewhere peaceful. I have always loved forests in particular. This world can be cruel and living can be painful, it is why death brings me a lot of comfort, personally. I see nonexistence as true peace.

 

[Krossクロス]

Sleeping pills are useless, sorry

Do you know how I can find Cyanide?

 

[motel rooms]

Do you know how I can find Cyanide?

No... But there are other, less painful methods -

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-resource-compilation.3/

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

If that's you in the picture you look really cool....like 'with it'. I don't even like nature, but when it rains I sorta like it. I've been to Niagra Falls as a very young person. It was not impactful. Would you jump? I understand the feeling of disappearing.

I think it's better to be found semi quickly after exiting existence so body doesn't get all gross...but for some I guess it doesn't matter.

Yeah, cyanide I hear is nasty. Much of everything is...but it sounds so bad.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Sleeping pills are useless, sorry

Not true, bud.

I died, twice, during one of my first overdoses on sleeping pills.

Only 40 zopiclone & 40 diazepam, but I had only recently been prescribed the drugs, so my tolerance was zero.

I died twice, was placed into a medically induced coma, and it took three attempts to bring me out of it. After which, I believe I had a mini stroke, as half of my face was sloped & I had to be spoon fed, as I couldn't even hold a spoon steadily.

So no, my friend, sleeping pills are not useless.