Tried to ctb

[Red87]

Well I tried had it in my mouth about to swallow my mom called at 10 freaked out spit it out all over my floor lol went and hurried and wash my mouth out thank God I didn't swallow any and of course I was already nervous as hell she called to tell me my brother just got arrested I guess I'll try another day my nerves are to bad tonight now my sister in-law is bringing my brother car to me tonight dam anything else

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Wow! That was intense!

I'm curious, you had zero effects from the SN having been in your mouth and getting into the mucous membranes?

 

[Sinai Silence]

Some might say that's a sign or maybe its just coincidence. Either way I wish you peace in whatever your next move is.

 

[Red87]

No it didn't effect me but it was really salty it was so gross but I'm still going to do it but I think I'm going to try to find something to relax me cause Lexapro makes me more nervous might see if I can get a Xanax see if it will help but I think the reason the sn didn't effect me cause I rushed to the bathroom and washed out my mouth because my mom was calling so yeah it was intense for a second no side effects though

 

[Zappfe lover]

No it didn't effect me but it was really salty it was so gross but I'm still going to do it but I think I'm going to try to find something to relax me cause Lexapro makes me more nervous might see if I can get a Xanax see if it will help but I think the reason the sn didn't effect me cause I rushed to the bathroom and washed out my mouth because my mom was calling so yeah it was intense for a second no side effects though

Ouch... that was hard to read...

At least you didn't feel any side effects.

 

[Red87]

Yeah I'm glad about that it would of sucked if I did I kept looking in the mirror making sure I wasn't turning blue lol but I'm glad because now I know what it taste like and I definitely might need something to numb my tongue because that was the most nasty thing ever

 

[KleinerWolf]

Yeah I'm glad about that it would of sucked if I did I kept looking in the mirror making sure I wasn't turning blue lol but I'm glad because now I know what it taste like and I definitely might need something to numb my tongue because that was the most nasty thing ever

If you ever change your mind you can PM me.
I'm a good listener.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Sorry you had that experience, it sounds like a lot of stress. Remember there's never any pressure to do this at a particular deadline and you don't have to feel bad for freaking out and changing your mind.

 

[Red87]

Thanks but I'm definitely going to do it it's what I want and I'm ready for what comes after I'm just ready for peace

 

[rhiino]

Do you mean you had it in your mouth and then your mom called you? That's unlucky.

 

[Red87]

Yeah I just had put it in my mouth didn't get a chance to drink it when the phone rang I spit it out real quick ran to the bathroom and washed my mouth out yeah it was unlucky but now I know how it taste and I'm going to use something to make it easier to drink it