tried to ctb but i dont think it'll work

[jenny6391bubbles]

just tried mixing ritalin with some antidepressants and alcohol. i dont know. i just dont feel life is worth living anyway. my boyfriend priotizes his stupid ranked, competitive games over me (i sacrifice sleep so that i can talk to him because most of the time he plays) and i'll probably break up with him soon anyway. my grades are dropping, might get into debt soon, and might lose my scholarship because of the first thing.

does anyone know a cheap and easy way to ctb? sodium nitrite isn't readily available here and i don't have anywhere in my house to jump or hang myself.

thanks.

 

[jenny6391bubbles]

the alcohol just made me drunk LMAO idt ill die but i udnerstand how people drink their problems away. i hope the systems change so that peopel stop drinkign/snorting/$smokeing/whatever their problems away

 

[RedHarlequin]

Don't hurt yourself it's nearly impossible to ctb with random antidepressants.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Glad it did, antidepressants have been developed a long way since the 60s and aren't lethal nowadays usually.

 

[WornOutLife]

Don't act impulsively, dear.
Those methods won't probably work.

If I were in your shoes, I'd try to get some money little by little and find a better and peaceful way out.

Hope you can feel better somehow.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[jenny6391bubbles]

hello, update!

there's a high chance im experiencing serotonin syndrome right now though im pretty sure it wont kill me. just experiencing profuse sweating, a fast heartbeat, paleness, numbness, and twitching of the hands. my eyelids also suddenly became pale. No one suspects i've attempted to ctb. as the kids say, "poggers!"

hopefully i can find a way to ctb properly in the future because so many items/chemicals i need to ctb peacefully are unavailable in my country (also cant order online because of customs whatever).