BobbyPellitt
Leap of Faith
- Sep 4, 2019
- 83
I'm trapped inside my own mind, consumed by never-ending thoughts as life passes by. My worst nightmare is happening right in front of me and there's nothing I can do about it. I no longer have free will. The world was so cruel to me, so I retreated inside my own head where they couldn't get me. But I lost myself in the process, and now I can' get out.
I don't even know who I am anymore, or what I truly want in life. No sense of self-identity, I'm just a dead man walking. Searching for that next dopamine hit through video games, movies, music, cigarettes, caffeine and porn. Despite my best effort, thousands of dollars wasted on therapy and medication, I simply can no longer get that "spark" back in life. I'm just a broken man, and the only fix is death.
Sorry just wanted to vent.
I don't even know who I am anymore, or what I truly want in life. No sense of self-identity, I'm just a dead man walking. Searching for that next dopamine hit through video games, movies, music, cigarettes, caffeine and porn. Despite my best effort, thousands of dollars wasted on therapy and medication, I simply can no longer get that "spark" back in life. I'm just a broken man, and the only fix is death.
Sorry just wanted to vent.
