Too tired to post

[Bluescreen]

Hello,
I haven't been here for a long time, had to deal with Corona and other sh*t. After Corona, which had been hard for about one month, I became more tired than I was before, I just want to fall asleep and never awake. The State before Corona I would describe as despire and aggression, Now I am so tired that I don't want to see or hear anyone, even having discussion on Forums or in social media is unbearable.

Some of you have been very caring and in contact, just wanted to let you know that I am very touched by this.

I don't know what is going on and the Change is the progressing Depression or Corona. I wish all the best for you.

 

[LastFlowers]

I know how you feel, I go from a negatively energized state of panic, anger, and tears to a state of absolute defeat in which I can barely move, never mind interact online.
Even on this site, I usually just say my piece and leave the thread or revisit it enough times until I'm just over it and too tired to continue typing, even if I've got a world's worth more to say.
Even my preparation to ctb is exhausting me and seems like a giant task.
I also wish I could just fall asleep and never wake, or push a giant red button to take care of everything for me.

 

[WornOutLife]

Welcome back!
Sorry about covid! I got that bastard too, last year!

Hope things can get better for you soon!

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[demuic]

I understand. There's a lot of times I've been wanting to make a post or a reply on here but I simply haven't had the energy to put any words together. I do use reactions as a substitute.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

I really relate to this. I have very strong mental fatigue and cognitive problems (because of brain injury) and sometimes I just can't reply or read posts, it's very mentally exhausting. Sometimes even forming a phrase feels physically painful.

Today has been a good day in weeks and I have had energy to finally reply messages and respond to threads. I haven't had this energy in months so I am taking advantage of it while it lasts.

 

[Bluescreen]

Hello!

Thank you. This confuses me, because I was the type of an aggressive Person. The thing I want had to be happen immediately, 100 % as I wish, or the world was just a shitty place not worth living in and had to be destroyed. I was not the person who spent a single thought on nature and earth protection, they should protect themselves or belong to be destroyed. The Reports about dying Forests didn't make me sad or happy, I just wanted to help make it faster. Why not duse a Can of Oil and light a much? Even a stupid forest should not have a long, agonizing death.


People who didn't share my thoughts and opinion deserved to die, I had the wish to kill them, even if they didn't do much.

Now, I don't care about it. No aggressive, but also no productive thoughts. Feels like tranquelized. Maybe it's better that way, or it's a presign for worse things on their way.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know what the tiredness feels like, a couple of months ago I had a time period where I could barely do anything. Existing can be really exhausting and all I look forward to is sleep, it's the one big relief.