Tons of 💊

[sadnurse90]

Just a question…. I haven't been on for a while cause I've been doing better. Spending time with my child, contemplating life but something keeps coming back. Please don't judge me but I really don't know how much longer I can live this life.

I have horrible panic attacks, debilitating. My dog is not a therapy dog but even he comes over and does pressure and just loves me. It helps but I am a horrible mom. I can't function and I feel like my husbands family will be there for him and my baby if I go.

I have Xanax (5mg) not much, a ton of ativan and a few clonopin. What can I do to make it more efficient? Drink obviously but… anything else?

 

[eternalflame]

I don't think it is enough. Im not an expert on a subject though but there is huge chance you will vommit it all up.
Do you have boy or a girl? I don't like my family but i don't think being halp orphan is good.

 

[Euthanza]

It takes huge amount to get fatal dose from benzos, that's why most doctors now prescribe benzos rather than barbiturates, for safety from drugs abuse. Benzos will only damage your organs before you're able to consume all, it's not even good for long term use.

 

[sadnurse90]

A girl. I love her and in no way is it her fault. I'm putting money aside, she has her father and plenty of family. I am not leaving her alone…. I just don't know how much of this I can take. When do I start becoming a toxic parent…. I don't want it to get that fat
Sorry I took an ativan to calm down so might be typos