After having an amazing therapist for 6 years, he is giving up on me. That's the straw that broke the camals back as they say. It hurts a lot. I even admitted to him yesterday that I was going to kill myself in two weeks. (Truth be told it could be sooner than that. I have N, just need to take it. ) Talk about feeling worthless.
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AnestheticVoid
ā¤ļø Dissociatives ā¤ļø
- Feb 17, 2022
- 273
Who knows. Supposedly he feels he can't help me anymore and it's doing more harm for me than good. Which is completely not the truth. I have two more sessions with him and then I'm done. Hence me telling him I'm killing myself in two weeks.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,245
This is one of the biggest reasons that I wouldn't want a therapist, because I wouldn't want to guilt trip them with my suicidal ideation.
It's not like I'm trying to guilt trip him. I'm just done. The one thing keeping me alive is ending, no reason for me to stick around.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,245
Did he tell you that he is finishing therapy after or before you told him that you were going to end it?
Weebster
Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
- Mar 11, 2022
- 1,683
symphony
surving hour-by-hour
- Mar 12, 2022
- 779
I'm surprised he just... let you walk out of there, after saying that. I don't know what the law is like where you are but I've been involuntarily hospitalized several times for admitting to a lot less than a fully-formed intent and plan to ctb in the near future.
He claims part of him wanted to hospitalize me but he didn't. I guess because I didn't admit to a definite method.
Well this is the second time this month I've mentioned it the other time was two weeks ago, before he told me he was ending the therapy.
_Seeking
I'm only here for this moment
- Dec 16, 2021
- 205
It sounds like your therapist is scared of a suicide on his watch so he is dropping you. I'm sorry that you are going through this.
symphony
surving hour-by-hour
- Mar 12, 2022
- 779
That's fair, but at least in (most? all?) the US, my understanding is mental health professionals are legally required to take action if they have reason to believe someone is in imminent danger. I've been hospitalized for much more passive suicidal thoughts, like reporting I thought I might attempt, or feeling scared I might attempt - no definite method needed. Most recently I was hospitalized for acting out of character and showing signs of distress. I didn't make any comment on my suicidality at all, and still ended up in a psych ward.
To be clear, I'd say it's absolutely a good thing you didn't end up locked up, it's just, interesting.
Regardless, it does seem pretty shitty of him to just abandon you like that... I'm sorry you have to deal with that so close to the end.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,245
In all honesty it is very complicated. I am sorry you are going through this and I am also sorry for him. You are both caught between a rock and a hard place. He is trying to keep you alive and you are telling him that you are going to kill yourself. It is a no win situation. That's why I stay away from therapists because I know that all their attempts to 'treat me' would be in vain.
I am in the US. I guess I just got lucky.
Sorry to hear that you got sent to the hospital, those aren't always fun experiences.
Arrow
Rewrite
- May 1, 2020
- 783
two more sessions and then he's done, or two more sessions and then you're done?
what do you mean he gave up? can we have more details?
are you saying he said "im done i don't want to work with you anymore"? & did he say that before or after you said you'd kill yourself in two weeks?
AnestheticVoid
ā¤ļø Dissociatives ā¤ļø
- Feb 17, 2022
- 273
6 years is long time tho. Were you showing improvement? In your next sessions I'd suggest maybe apologizing and saying that you didn't mean to put that burden on him and just had a moment of weakness maybe. You say he was good towards you he's only human too. It's possible you just need a different therapist that could help in a different way. I'm sorry you feel like he's abandoned you, that must feel terrible.
Yea 6 years is a long time, long enough to make me think he wouldn't give up. I guess that's why it hurts so much. And yea, I was showing improvement in some areas apparently just not all of them.
As I explained before, this time it was after. I've had suicidal ideation in the past as well. Yea two more sessions and he's done. And so am I.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,616
I'm sorry that you are in this situation, I can imagine that it must be awful. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.I know that I don't know the whole story, but are you wanting to leave strictly because your therapist doesn't feel that they can help you? Do you think that finding a new therapist (or psychiatrist) would be able to help you continue making some progress and possibly change your feelings on the matter?
I'm sorry for your situation, I've been dropped by a lot of therapists myself. It's important to understand that when this happens: the problem is the therapists limited skillset, not you.
lili
Specialist
- Feb 17, 2022
- 319
I'm so sorry your dealing with this. This is why I dislike therapists. They try to help but at the end of the day it's just their job and they have their own life problems as well. It can feel very painful and impersonal when they need to stop a session.
I tried to get one a month or two ago, and it's so much bureocracy. But then at the session they said I had too many problems and they weren't experienced enough for them. So I don't know who to talk to since aparently I have too many problems.
I wish you the best in this situation. Must be difficult to happen after six years.Similar threads
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