Today might be the day

[Diminished]

Since I got hold of SN late last year, I decided to give life one last shot, but it's clear my brain is incapable of rewiring itself. I dunno, I think once you hit a certain stage with clinical depression long term, negative thoughts can't be changed into positive thoughts.

Every goal or desire I've ever had in life has become bleaker every year. I stay in the same position, with the same habits and my life becomes embarrassing to myself and to those around me, and it's only to get worse from here onwards.

Hopefully I can build the courage today. I can't cope with my mind torturing me anymore

 

[eternalflame]

Wishing you strenght in whatever you choose.

 

[SpaceCadet]

I've been holding my sn for 3 years by now, hoping this could get better, today i'm at the rock bottom. It's just sad how depression drag us down no matter what we do, hopefully you can find a way.

 

[Chiisai]

I feel you. I wish that, whatever you decide, you will find the peace you seek.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Diminished]

Wishing you strenght in whatever you choose.

Thank you

I've been holding my sn for 3 years by now, hoping this could get better, today i'm at the rock bottom. It's just sad how depression drag us down no matter what we do, hopefully you can find a way.

Yeah it's completely crushing and soul destroying. It must be amazing to go through life without this mental illness

I feel you. I wish that, whatever you decide, you will find the peace you seek.

Thanks

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thank you. Well I don't think I'm going to go through with it now. My survival instinct is still too strong, and I think there's still apart of me that refuses to give up for now