Today I've met my future pretty sure I gonna ctb

[noname223]

Today I've met a guy from a former clinic stay. He lives in poverty and lonely in an institution for mentally ill people. (there are shared apartments) I know many mentally ill people who cannot work and have to live there. He told me there are many thiefs and his smartphone was stolen 2 times due to that. Damn having no internet scares me. Before I have to live there I need to ctb. I cannot work and this is probably my future when my parents die. I am not made for poverty. My life quality is already abysmal why should I stay alive for this humiliation. Damn it scares me being surrounded by junkies who steal all my stuff. No woman will ever take such a loser. I hope I end it before this will take place.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life can be so cruel. It can be hard when the future looks hopeless. If you decide to leave then I wish you peace. None of us deserve the suffering this life has given us.

 

[noname223]

This life can be so cruel. It can be hard when the future looks hopeless. If you decide to leave then I wish you peace. None of us deserve the suffering this life has given us.

Not now. There are still stuff that keeps me going. But my future seems extremely bad. And I am even fucked up in the present time.

 

[Largeletters]

I'm sorry the idea of this future is so stress-inducing. I would not want to live that way either. I'm sorry.

 

[Superdeterminist]

That sounds so awful I can't even describe it, and I fear that my future is a similar one. Of course suicide makes sense in the face of such hideous torment. Nobody deserves that kind of living hell.