Venting Today I was on the ledge of a fourth store

[Zegers]

Today i was on the ledge of a fourth store, i liked the feeling of how SI started to tremble. It was scary but exciting at the same time, i don't know how to describe it. Now that I've been up there i know i could do it if i didn't get the other method, i would just need a higher place to make it maybe more effective.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You've got more cojones than I.

 

[Zegers]

You've got more cojones than I.

I don't think so. Just my days are quite rough to deal with and the will to exit is sometimes stronger than SI i guess.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't think so. Just my days are quite rough to deal with and the will to exit is sometimes stronger than SI i guess.

No, really, I don't like heights and could not have gone to the ledge of even a one-story building and looked down. I never used to have trouble with that. I used to go up on my roof all the time and fix roofing, mount a satellite dish, run pipes out my chimney for the furnace, etc. Then, all of a sudden, I couldn't do that anymore. Have no idea what precipitated the change. So, my cojones comment has to stand. Maybe that's it? Maybe my balls have gotten smaller over time?

 

[FuneralCry]

I do envy those with the courage for jumping. That method sounds terrifying to me. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering. Best wishes.

 

[Zegers]

I do envy those with the courage for jumping. That method sounds terrifying to me. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering. Best wishes.

At this method i wouldn't jump, i would take a shake of pills, climb up to the ledge and stay there like maybe 30min until it knocked me out and would be a soft fall

 

[Angi]

Today i was on the ledge of a fourth store, i liked the feeling of how SI started to tremble. It was scary but exciting at the same time, i don't know how to describe it. Now that I've been up there i know i could do it if i didn't get the other method, i would just need a higher place to make it maybe more effective.

Please be aware that a fall from the 4th floor is not very likely to kill you, you may just find yourself in a wheelchair. Lostallhope and a couple of other websites keep statistics.

I know the feeling you describe, the trembling and the excitement at the prospect of a specific and reachable way out. I wish I could understand this feeling better, it is very strange.

 

[Zegers]

Please be aware that a fall from the 4th floor is not very likely to kill you, you may just find yourself in a wheelchair. Lostallhope and a couple of other websites keep statistics.

I know the feeling you describe, the trembling and the excitement at the prospect of a specific and reachable way out. I wish I could understand this feeling better, it is very strange.

It's like visualizing light after years of darkness, something like that.

I know a 4 is not that safe, i'm on holiday now and that's the floor i'm on. If I did it like that, it would be at least like 10 stores.

 

[Funeralprincess]

No, really, I don't like heights and could not have gone to the ledge of even a one-story building and looked down. I never used to have trouble with that. I used to go up on my roof all the time and fix roofing, mount a satellite dish, run pipes out my chimney for the furnace, etc. Then, all of a sudden, I couldn't do that anymore. Have no idea what precipitated the change. So, my cojones comment has to stand. Maybe that's it? Maybe my balls have gotten smaller over time?

Same happened to me lol. I used to ride roller coasters and go high up in elevators that had see through glass… I'm now very afraid of heights, even on airplanes . It just happened