The thing that is important to me, is making sure that the method does not fail. Everything else is meaningless, and I do not believe that there is any afterlife. I think that when we die, we cease to exist, we are gone.
I believe death to be like how before we were born, where time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. My life does not matter at all and it is so insignificant. All I want is to be free from this horrible existence, the thought of dying is comforting.