Tired.

[Roseate]

I am tired of the same thing. I am tired of this stupid life and all of it's stupid fucking rules. And I'm honestly tired of trying my goodness I feel like life is always just throwing a curve ball my way and I know I'm not alone but it feels like it. I mean who really understands me that I actually know? Not a single person. I get a job and of course it's not good enough. Nothing is ever fucking good enough. My efforts are never good enough. It's tiring. I want to half ass it like the rest of the fucking people in this world just for once. I don't want to have to go out of my way to feel sane or to have something fucking good for once. I was actually thinking I'd be less miserable if I found a job cuz I could have a coping mechanism like everyone else which is literally all I can ask for. I just wanted something full time so I'd have enough to waste on coping mechanisms. Everyone have something but I am always fucking scraping and getting pity from my parents cuz of course everyone else works more than me and that just makes me lazy. Even though I try. I try a lot. And I always get the scrapes that no one else wants. Am I supposed to be content when everyone in my family have better and tries to put me down for something that is sorta out of my control. Yeah I can get a better job, a full time but with my luck it won't pay shit, it'll pay less than this job and so paycheck will still be a problem to them. It's like everything you want to do in this fucking life you need money for. Want a hobby? Money. I'm so tired of it all. Tired of working this stupid job that refuses to give hours. Tired of dealing with these idiot customers. Tired of these annoying managers. Tired of everyone and everything and I'm tired of being on the edge but never off the fucking bridge. I feel like I'm all alone. I just need a break from this world, this life. Just for a while.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am also tired of living, I just want to be gone, to me life just seems to be suffering for the sake of it. I'm sorry that you are in this situation, it sounds really stressful and exhausting what you are going through. I know that it is awful when things get worse. I wish you the best in whatever happens, I hope you find relief from suffering.

 

[waitingforrest]

I hate it too, working just for money and having to wake up and do it over and over again. It really does drain the will to live for me. I hate that I will spend the rest of my life working on meaningless jobs to get meaningless money. It never seems to stop.

 

[Roseate]

I am also tired of living, I just want to be gone, to me life just seems to be suffering for the sake of it. I'm sorry that you are in this situation, it sounds really stressful and exhausting what you are going through. I know that it is awful when things get worse. I wish you the best in whatever happens, I hope you find relief from suffering.

I hope so. And exactly that. People say it will get better if you believe but it just seems like you get an inch of good so you can have a taste of something you will never truly have or experience long term.

I hate it too, working just for money and having to wake up and do it over and over again. It really does drain the will to live for me. I hate that I will spend the rest of my life working on meaningless jobs to get meaningless money. It never seems to stop.

Exactly. It never stops until you die. Even if you were to do something you enjoy, it's like every money you get you don't actually get to keep anyways.

 

[Lost Magic]

Welcome to the never ending rat race called, LIFE.

 

[Roseate]

Welcome to the never ending rat race called, LIFE.

It's hell. I don't know why people fear hell. We are literally living it daily in a sense