Tired of living

[Shan2701]

Hi all you lovely people. Well I am tired of living, the stress is unbearable. Not only having nothing, no job, friends or family. I am Transgender and that alone is a lonely life. I do believe in God. I pray but in my heart I know my time is near. I am scared as I just dont know which is the best way to go. I even thought of swallowing something and let it get lodged in my throat. Or drowning in the ocean. Hanging scares me in case I get the setup wrong. I wish I was not born Transgender. But to have no support or friends and being on your own, with no form of work is beyond painful. I just need to be set free. Love

 

[Superdeterminist]

Hi all you lovely people. Well I am tired of living, the stress is unbearable. Not only having nothing, no job, friends or family. I am Transgender and that alone is a lonely life. I do believe in God. I pray but in my heart I know my time is near. I am scared as I just dont know which is the best way to go. I even thought of swallowing something and let it get lodged in my throat. Or drowning in the ocean. Hanging scares me in case I get the setup wrong. I wish I was not born Transgender. But to have no support or friends and being on your own, with no form of work is beyond painful. I just need to be set free. Love

I feel you. I'm not transgender so I'll never understand your pain in that respect, but it's still easy to see how your predicament causes you a world of grief. Attitudes on transgenderism are woefully slow to change, and science has yet to shed adequate light on it. By now, it's painfully obvious that it's a very real, serious condition that cannot be helped, and has already taken the lives of so many due to how many problems and how much stress it causes the sufferers.

Like you, I've no friends, and no job, for long time now. I know that it feels terrible to not be secure in these important areas, to feel stuck. To be set free would indeed be wonderful. There are many aspects of existence, of being conscious, that are enjoyable and to be missed, but unfortunately, they are dramatically outweighed by a sea of pain. I hope you can find peace, whatever form that takes.