Venting Tired of everything and having thoughts of ctb (again)

[I need peace]

I have had an attempt with SN at the end of April, since then I've given up on life, then I've tried to recover, and things actually got a little better after I've broke the contact with family and stuff, but I've been thinking and I'm still broken. I'm still in pain, and I still think of ctb, I'm just stuck around because I don't want to hurt my husband, specially now that it's just me and him, so I've been trying to think positive, but I'm tired, I'm seriously tired of everything. Human existence, interactions, work, study, I'm just not meant for any of this

 

[IWillSmileWhenIDie]

I'm also fucking tired today especially in all senses of the word , hope you hang in there and feel better or exit and find relief. Times like this make me wanna accel things up and ctb quicker but I'll wait I'm in no hurry for now I'm good.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

I take it you have children? You've been suffering for long. if they are on their own now then you need to think of yourself. We stay for our loved ones but when do we get to end the pain? You shouldn't have to suffer your remaining life til natural death. I support your decision to stay or go <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I am also very tired, the kind of tired that no amount of sleep could ever take away. I understand the feeling of not being meant for this life, I really should have never existed in the first place. Living really is so painful and tiring, and I understand that it is hard to carry on when you suffer so much. I wish you relief from pain.

 

[Keto]

These days I'm so tired and under so much pressure and bad decision made in the past. I don't know why suicidal ideation skyrocketed in summer months.
I have young children and relatively peaceful family
Yet I don't want to stay in this life anymore.
I have all the stuff to CTB. Just waiting for the right moment. If I have to wait until my children become adult and independent, then I have decades ahead. Such difficult situation

 

[Viafactorum]

I have had an attempt with SN at the end of April, since then I've given up on life, then I've tried to recover, and things actually got a little better after I've broke the contact with family and stuff, but I've been thinking and I'm still broken. I'm still in pain, and I still think of ctb, I'm just stuck around because I don't want to hurt my husband, specially now that it's just me and him, so I've been trying to think positive, but I'm tired, I'm seriously tired of everything. Human existence, interactions, work, study, I'm just not meant for any of this

Can you tell me what when wrong with your SN attempt? Did you underdose or get discovered too quickly?

 

[I need peace]

Can you tell me what when wrong with your SN attempt? Did you underdose or get discovered too quickly?

Got found like 15-20 minutes after taking the dose, also took it on impulse and wasn't fasting which may have helped

 

[london3]

I am tired of life

The sway of emotions is terrible and i have good and bad days, but mostly bad. Thinking about my life and past regrets, thinking about my family and the hurt it would cause, thinking of hope for the future and how there might even be a small chance of something good happening.

It is all simply exhausting and i am tired.

 

[Huntfish34]

Yepp,. I'm right there with you. I'm sick and tired of being sick and Fckn tired. Dealing with life on life's terms and everything associated with it. Fml -

 

[Viafactorum]

Got found like 15-20 minutes after taking the dose, also took it on impulse and wasn't fasting which may have helped

I see. I hope you find peace in your endeavors.