Thursday

[Flying Away]

I always knew I'd die on a Thursday but at least it is in my hands. Too many bad life choices. The worse being not seeking help when the one person who loved me asked me to. The coming weekend we were meant to meet and spend time together but I don't think it's going to happen. Think I'll end up alone. Too many mistakes to make up for the hurt I caused. To think one last thing could possibly put me into full recovery but maybe that one person doesn't want to chance being hurt again. I can't live with that on my conscience. I want them to be happy and I know only way that can happen is if I'm gone.

 

[Euthanza]

"What die is it?" asked Pooh.
"It's to die" squeaked Micky.
"My favorite die" said Pooh.

 

[Unworthyoflove]

I always knew I'd die on a Thursday but at least it is in my hands. Too many bad life choices. The worse being not seeking help when the one person who loved me asked me to. The coming weekend we were meant to meet and spend time together but I don't think it's going to happen. Think I'll end up alone. Too many mistakes to make up for the hurt I caused. To think one last thing could possibly put me into full recovery but maybe that one person doesn't want to chance being hurt again. I can't live with that on my conscience. I want them to be happy and I know only way that can happen is if I'm gone.

thursday huh...the day named after the god thor. maybe that means something . It sounds like your plans are very tied to this one beloved person. how come you are so sure that he/she will be happy when you leave?. btw I ve been there too. question is, where you together longer time or was it just a short dating ? in my experience when just being used a short while for s , then the user couldnt care less. but if its your longterm expartner there will be some grief for sure. maybe also guilt.. have you asked yourself what outcome you wish for this coming weekend ? it often helps to be very honest to oneself here. maybe you just need your beloved person to support you now... or to forgive you. I hope you can communicate to eachother about this. wishing you the very best :)

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful and I know that it's hard to carry on when you suffer. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from what you are going through as none of us should ever have to endure such misery.

 

[Flying Away]

thursday huh...the day named after the god thor. maybe that means something . It sounds like your plans are very tied to this one beloved person. how come you are so sure that he/she will be happy when you leave?. btw I ve been there too. question is, where you together longer time or was it just a short dating ? in my experience when just being used a short while for s , then the user couldnt care less. but if its your longterm expartner there will be some grief for sure. maybe also guilt.. have you asked yourself what outcome you wish for this coming weekend ? it often helps to be very honest to oneself here. maybe you just need your beloved person to support you now... or to forgive you. I hope you can communicate to eachother about this. wishing you the very best :)

42 years this coming Saturday. Feel it's best anniversary present I can give them

 

[Unworthyoflove]

42 years this coming Saturday. Feel it's best anniversary present I can give them

wow. for some thats a lifetime. cant even imagine how it must feel to seperate after such long time. since I dont know the backround story, it sounds to me like there is still a chance to fix it. since you have these plans of meeting up soon. hope everything turns out well for you.