This life of dying is kiĺling me.

[Busridin'26]

When i wanna die my already horrible health habits gets worse so likeee....

I haven't eaten more than 1 meals worth of calories/ within a day.... in like a month or something.

I can feel how my lack of nutrition is affecting me. Brain dead. So tryna fix that but so meh?

I am ready to die. I cant believe its June but I wanna be gone by fall or early winter..

I can finally plan and see myself at least getting the steps together.

Maybe I didn't try hard enough but I am giving up. As i had wanted/imagined in the past I wantèd to be isolated/start isolating myself while I plan and stuff. Live out the rest of my days COMPLETELY alone.

I am already there. The isolation hurts but kinda necessary for me.. I hate my family but its like damn I wanna hug them bye and I can't/won't.

Yes... this process is hard my body is giving up already and I gotta find some life in me to fucking get it together enough to be cohesive.

I am dead while having to be "alive"..It feels nice to give up but... not nice to have to live all these months. Ugh.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really can be painful, I know how that feels. I feel like giving up a lot of the time, living is exhausting. If this is the option you want then I wish you peace. Nobody deserves to suffer.

 

[WornOutLife]

Hello, dear.
You know I'm here right with you!
Talk to me whenever you want!

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[JustAFriendlyGuy]

Hey, so i just found this thread and wondered what happened. I can't find a goodbye thread, is he/she still with us and has simply left the site or.. ? I would have loved to talk with him/ her atleast once. I know i can't magically fix everything, but i was in a similar situation. So i can relate to some extent, don't know it might have made him/her feel better atleast.
If anyone knows something, please message me.