This is a suicide letter I've written.

[Lifewpain]

Hey Mom and Dad
(To the best parents ever )
Firstly I want to make this clear. This is absolutely not your fault. It's me, everything is wrong with me . Infact the both of you were the best things in my life. The both of you were the reason I continued to fight for so long. My life has only been better with the both of ya'll in it. But I've been suffering for too long. For years now, the only thing I've wanted to do is to know what it feels like, to not feel pain, I've wanted to know what it feels like to not cry every single day and feel that I'm suffocating. I've been hurting for so long and I wanna scream about how much it pains . I really tried staying alive, I really did but I just don't think I can do it anymore. It's not about whether I should have taken therapy or not, that really wouldn't have helped . No-one could take all this pain away. So please don't blame yourself and don't blame each other. Please don't ever do that. The both of you were my pillars, y'all were my guardians and the my spring. I felt better whenever I talked with y'all.
Mom you are so strong, you're the reason I've learned to laugh and not take everything to my heart. I'm wondering about what I would have done if it weren't for you guiding me and telling me that "everything will be ok". I love you
Dad you're a fighter. You always have been and I love you. I have become tougher because of you. You are my hero .
I'm so sorry for this. I know you always told me that a parent should never burry their child and I'm so sorry for doing this. I really really tried my best.
Lastly everything that I have and everything that I posses belongs to the both of you. You can do anything you want with it .

I love you both
I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused. I swear this will be the last time

~My name~




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I've also given away all my story books to a local church. I'm gonna clean my room so that my parents don't need to do that. I'm still not decided about whether I should hang myself or have an overdose. I know hanging is slightly painful but that's ok

 

[Sittichmutter]

Dear,
I wish I could take all your pain away.
Your letter made me cry. It is very considerate and loving toward your parents.
Such a sweet person like you should not suffer. I am really sorry.
Feel loved!

 

[Idontmatter]

Hey Mom and Dad
(To the best parents ever )
Firstly I want to make this clear. This is absolutely not your fault. It's me, everything is wrong with me . Infact the both of you were the best things in my life. The both of you were the reason I continued to fight for so long. My life has only been better with the both of ya'll in it. But I've been suffering for too long. For years now, the only thing I've wanted to do is to know what it feels like, to not feel pain, I've wanted to know what it feels like to not cry every single day and feel that I'm suffocating. I've been hurting for so long and I wanna scream about how much it pains . I really tried staying alive, I really did but I just don't think I can do it anymore. It's not about whether I should have taken therapy or not, that really wouldn't have helped . No-one could take all this pain away. So please don't blame yourself and don't blame each other. Please don't ever do that. The both of you were my pillars, y'all were my guardians and the my spring. I felt better whenever I talked with y'all.
Mom you are so strong, you're the reason I've learned to laugh and not take everything to my heart. I'm wondering about what I would have done if it weren't for you guiding me and telling me that "everything will be ok". I love you
Dad you're a fighter. You always have been and I love you. I have become tougher because of you. You are my hero .
I'm so sorry for this. I know you always told me that a parent should never burry their child and I'm so sorry for doing this. I really really tried my best.
Lastly everything that I have and everything that I posses belongs to the both of you. You can do anything you want with it .

I love you both
I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused. I swear this will be the last time

~My name~




_


I've also given away all my story books to a local church. I'm gonna clean my room so that my parents don't need to do that. I'm still not decided about whether I should hang myself or have an overdose. I know hanging is slightly painful but that's ok

Wow, reading that is making me cry. I'm so sorry you've been brought to this decision.

 

[Lifewpain]

Dear,
I wish I could take all your pain away.
Your letter made me cry. It is very considerate and loving toward your parents.
Such a sweet person like you should not suffer. I am really sorry.
Feel loved!

Thank-you.
I wish you didn't have to suffer as well

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, it must be unbearable being in so much pain. I hope you find peace whether you decide to go through with ctb or not, I wish you the best.