0dysseus
Student
- Jun 11, 2026
- 176
It helps me a lot to know, when it comes to my SN plan--that I would know btw it won't be peacful with my crippling disease and all-- that others in history, and in fact everyday, suffered much harsher deaths. Yes, kind of fcked up and morbid mental exercise, but it would help with SI.
Also I want to say this to the people of this forum--I wish this place was only for people with no hope, not people that lost hope, there's a huge difference. I talked to people who are battling mental health diseases and disorders for 10 years and more, that tried every pill in the book, and on the other hand people after harsh breakup--both can induce immense suffering all the same, but the latter is a scenario that the person has much to live for still.
In any case, I'm about to try CTB with SN, and I hope I'll succeed to overcome my evolutionary strong SI. I'll try every night from now on, in a grove near my house.
Wish me luck, and stay strong, try to asses whether your situation is hopeful.
Peace.
Also I want to say this to the people of this forum--I wish this place was only for people with no hope, not people that lost hope, there's a huge difference. I talked to people who are battling mental health diseases and disorders for 10 years and more, that tried every pill in the book, and on the other hand people after harsh breakup--both can induce immense suffering all the same, but the latter is a scenario that the person has much to live for still.
In any case, I'm about to try CTB with SN, and I hope I'll succeed to overcome my evolutionary strong SI. I'll try every night from now on, in a grove near my house.
Wish me luck, and stay strong, try to asses whether your situation is hopeful.
Peace.
wish you a happy journey. Wait for me there. Arrange some good stuff in heaven for me 
