imsorrythatimhere
They/He
- Jan 18, 2021
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I'm gonna call him Tim in this rant.
During the beginning of November, I went on Omegle a lot. For some reason I thought it'd be interesting to list suicide as one of my interests in the tags match up thing.
And so I met Tim, who said he was killing himself in five minutes (with the method jumping). I don't really remember what I said to him, but we talked for a bit about his life, while internally I freaked , googled the height he mentioned to see if it was fatal (it was).
He didn't end up killing himself, saying I was nice and he didn't feel like doing it anymore. We friended each other on Discord, and I invited him to a server. Tim asked me not to talk about our convo on Omegle, and I complied. We played Among Us a lot, since it was popular and stuff + had random conversations. He was really nice and also sort of weird in a good way.
A few times however, I turned down his invites to play Among Us because I was busy with homework/didn't feel like it. A day after one of the times I turned him down, he stopped messaging. I've messaged him a few times afterwards, but he never responded nor was he ever online.
I hate jumping to conclusions and all, but I guess I sort of assumed he committed suicide. We didn't really know each other that well, but I was sad and I missed him.
I don't really blame myself or anything, nor do I feel guilty. But I guess I regret a lot of things there in the friendship. It was his choice to ctb, and I hope that he's found whatever peace he wanted. I just wish he said goodbye or something I guess. I don't have a lot of friends anymore, so perhaps its somewhat selfish to be suddenly missing him a lot.
not sure how to end this, so yeah
During the beginning of November, I went on Omegle a lot. For some reason I thought it'd be interesting to list suicide as one of my interests in the tags match up thing.
And so I met Tim, who said he was killing himself in five minutes (with the method jumping). I don't really remember what I said to him, but we talked for a bit about his life, while internally I freaked , googled the height he mentioned to see if it was fatal (it was).
He didn't end up killing himself, saying I was nice and he didn't feel like doing it anymore. We friended each other on Discord, and I invited him to a server. Tim asked me not to talk about our convo on Omegle, and I complied. We played Among Us a lot, since it was popular and stuff + had random conversations. He was really nice and also sort of weird in a good way.
A few times however, I turned down his invites to play Among Us because I was busy with homework/didn't feel like it. A day after one of the times I turned him down, he stopped messaging. I've messaged him a few times afterwards, but he never responded nor was he ever online.
I hate jumping to conclusions and all, but I guess I sort of assumed he committed suicide. We didn't really know each other that well, but I was sad and I missed him.
I don't really blame myself or anything, nor do I feel guilty. But I guess I regret a lot of things there in the friendship. It was his choice to ctb, and I hope that he's found whatever peace he wanted. I just wish he said goodbye or something I guess. I don't have a lot of friends anymore, so perhaps its somewhat selfish to be suddenly missing him a lot.
not sure how to end this, so yeah
