threevoices
Member
- Aug 24, 2024
- 17
a lot of the rationale is in this thread i made a month or so ago so check that out
since school is out for me now i am realizing that im not gonna be seeing really anyone i know so itd be prime time for me to "disappear" (which would just be me not being active on any of my socials). i would ctb but im not at that point yet, plus when i do get there i want to be 100% sure of success, since the only methods i have access to would potentially cause a lot of damage if i survived. my ideal is SN but of course thats impossible for me so my next best choice is probably full or partial suspension hanging
i genuinely dont think anyone would really care. i have a few friends in a discord server that might, and one irl friend, but really thats it. its just so exhausting for me to upkeep my relationships and if i dont even matter in the end to them then whats even the point. im just a back up to them after all
im worried its an asshole thing to do but im just really having a tough time right now and i think just talking to people when i know its pointless and that they dont care about anything im saying would be even worse for me right now. and as a bonus itd test the waters for how people would react if i ctb, which is a big reason im hesitant to. i am really curious on the effects itd have on peoples lives and how theyd handle it
since school is out for me now i am realizing that im not gonna be seeing really anyone i know so itd be prime time for me to "disappear" (which would just be me not being active on any of my socials). i would ctb but im not at that point yet, plus when i do get there i want to be 100% sure of success, since the only methods i have access to would potentially cause a lot of damage if i survived. my ideal is SN but of course thats impossible for me so my next best choice is probably full or partial suspension hanging
i genuinely dont think anyone would really care. i have a few friends in a discord server that might, and one irl friend, but really thats it. its just so exhausting for me to upkeep my relationships and if i dont even matter in the end to them then whats even the point. im just a back up to them after all
im worried its an asshole thing to do but im just really having a tough time right now and i think just talking to people when i know its pointless and that they dont care about anything im saying would be even worse for me right now. and as a bonus itd test the waters for how people would react if i ctb, which is a big reason im hesitant to. i am really curious on the effects itd have on peoples lives and how theyd handle it
