Mrs. T-800
schwarzenegger fangirl ♡t-800 from t2 is my love♡
- Nov 25, 2025
- 82
My job is... terrible.
I sit alone in a room all day in a former psych hospital facing away from a window and stare at a screen and send emails and listen to people complain. My boss is always moving goalposts, rude to me, talks to me like I'm stupid – more than that, but you get it.
It pays well, sure, and I am alone, but it's... not worth it.
I'm really depressed. I noticed I got worse since starting this.
I want to quit, but I'm using my degree, and I don't want to let my husband or (grand)parents down. Also, most people really want a job right now.
I was a part-timer in the same field, at the same place, before this. I was a lot happier. I could work when and where I wanted and I had a lot of freedom. Of course, it paid less, and, being self-employed, I had less to go around, given I had to pay my own insurances, a higher tax rate, etc. But I felt good. I felt better. I was able to also be a housewife the other part of the time and do things I enjoyed. My husband let me keep every dollar I earned and I could do whatever I wanted. I felt capable as a woman and a wife.
Now I am just miserable.
I feel like less of a woman because I don't have time for domestic things as much, and that was something I took great pride in.
(My husband isn't making me work, but I told him I would give it a shot for a year, plus the extra money does help.)
Nor things that made me well rounded and happy.
I am in sad, bored, listless state. I talk to nobody, my hall has 4 people including myself, and nobody bothers even when I do. I'm not even going to grow my network like this.
I could find something else. But I'm stuck here until the year is up. I promised.
Even then, when I switch, what if the next thing is no good? I'll be paid less going back to part time. It doesn't matter in the end, but it does feel good knowing I can save more.
Should I become a mother? The ultimate plan is to try to live and to be a mom someday.
It's approaching too fast. I want time for myself and for my 20s still. I feel like I'm not going to be able to be a good mother.
The circumstances are dismal, socially, economically, politically, etc. I feel like my child wouldn't get a chance at a real, genuine life, between AI and the woes of the world and the stunted socialization and lack of skills.
That job seems off putting now too. Or just selfish, should I do it.
There is no winning.
I sit alone in a room all day in a former psych hospital facing away from a window and stare at a screen and send emails and listen to people complain. My boss is always moving goalposts, rude to me, talks to me like I'm stupid – more than that, but you get it.
It pays well, sure, and I am alone, but it's... not worth it.
I'm really depressed. I noticed I got worse since starting this.
I want to quit, but I'm using my degree, and I don't want to let my husband or (grand)parents down. Also, most people really want a job right now.
I was a part-timer in the same field, at the same place, before this. I was a lot happier. I could work when and where I wanted and I had a lot of freedom. Of course, it paid less, and, being self-employed, I had less to go around, given I had to pay my own insurances, a higher tax rate, etc. But I felt good. I felt better. I was able to also be a housewife the other part of the time and do things I enjoyed. My husband let me keep every dollar I earned and I could do whatever I wanted. I felt capable as a woman and a wife.
Now I am just miserable.
I feel like less of a woman because I don't have time for domestic things as much, and that was something I took great pride in.
(My husband isn't making me work, but I told him I would give it a shot for a year, plus the extra money does help.)
Nor things that made me well rounded and happy.
I am in sad, bored, listless state. I talk to nobody, my hall has 4 people including myself, and nobody bothers even when I do. I'm not even going to grow my network like this.
I could find something else. But I'm stuck here until the year is up. I promised.
Even then, when I switch, what if the next thing is no good? I'll be paid less going back to part time. It doesn't matter in the end, but it does feel good knowing I can save more.
Should I become a mother? The ultimate plan is to try to live and to be a mom someday.
It's approaching too fast. I want time for myself and for my 20s still. I feel like I'm not going to be able to be a good mother.
The circumstances are dismal, socially, economically, politically, etc. I feel like my child wouldn't get a chance at a real, genuine life, between AI and the woes of the world and the stunted socialization and lack of skills.
That job seems off putting now too. Or just selfish, should I do it.
There is no winning.
