There is no escape

[HappyForever?]

A survey shows that 42.3% of high school students have been in at least one relationship.
I'm in college now, which means I'm probably behind 50% of my peers.
I've never had a relationship, while some of them have been in multiple.
Some are blessed with the gift of good looks, and have not felt a single second of loneliness.
Some are not as conventionally attractive, but still managed to find a girl who admires qualities other than looks.
But others, like me, are doomed to a life of unfathomable loneliness.
No matter what we do, how hard we try, how much we try to improve, we will never attain what is handed to others.
They are happier at their worst than us at our best.
They will never have to endure the feeling that they are fundamentally unlovable, undeserving of love due to things entirely out of their control.
Their teenage love will forever stay in their heart, giving them courage to overcome anything that life throws at them.
Their blessing will stay with them forever.
Ans so will our curse.
Even if some of us manage to find love by some miracle, it will never make up for what we missed out earlier in life.
The teenage love that gives life its meaning.
We can never catch up.
If we want to live,our only option left is trying to cope with the pain, which only grows sharper with time.
And that's why I'm here.

 

[HeckingHecked]

Reminds me of my only friend. It's weird being friends with people who don't have issues with their appearance. Unsettling, even. That being said, she's still a great friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

The truth is that life is very unfair, many of us are disadvantaged through no fault of our own. It really can be horrible being alive. I'm sorry you have to go through this, I know for many people it can be painful when we cannot have the things that we want in life, especially if others have them and seeing them makes us aware of what we dont have. I wish you the best.