There is no choosing and its a movie

[Life sucks]

Life has no options and it's a flow. I didn't choose this life and didn't choose anything about what I experience. Everything that happened was because of countless variables. Random things and events that one doesn't even remember could shape their entire life. Like a random word heard somewhere or a small interaction, of course there are more details about how those variables do their things like brain chemicals, atoms, etc. It's like a movie that I didn't choose to watch. And now with how everything damaged my brain I see how I'm a robot following a flow.

 

[CommitSudoku]

This and your profile picture are giving me major Steins;Gates vibes, it's unavoidable. I think the anime, especially the first season, illustrates your point well. Okabe tried so hard to fight things to what end? To have his pain and suffering repeated but in a different form? Gosh I need to watch Steins;Gate again, it's been so long and I miss it. I miss Maki.

I think you're absolutely right. Gonna go relisten to Hacking to the Gate now.

El Psy Kongroo

 

[symphony]

Honestly, I agree. It's a pretty controversial take but I've come to believe that "free will" as we tend to believe it is absolutely an illusion created by our conscious brains. We're just molecules in motion, our behavior completely determined by our genes and our past, which in turn are completely determined by factors before them. It's just a cruel joke that we have a consciousness tacked on top of all that inevitable suffering.

 

[Red Scare]

Random things and events that one doesn't even remember

If you have severe trauma, you remember every little thing that shaped your life and turned it into the hell that it is.

 

[ikadasui]

Alll my problems except my sister can be traced back to going to the elementary school I did and meeting the miserable fucks I did. It's kind of funny that if I had gone anywhere else my life would probably be much better or it could be worse! Either way it didn't work out and I'm suffering every single fucking day because of it

 

[Life sucks]

This and your profile picture are giving me major Steins;Gates vibes, it's unavoidable. I think the anime, especially the first season, illustrates your point well. Okabe tried so hard to fight things to what end? To have his pain and suffering repeated but in a different form? Gosh I need to watch Steins;Gate again, it's been so long and I miss it. I miss Maki.

I think you're absolutely right. Gonna go relisten to Hacking to the Gate now.

El Psy Kongroo

Thank you Lab mem.
Actually I literally experienced Steins;gate irl and lost brain in the process. Well, Steins;gate without dmail and time leap machine

 

[CommitSudoku]

Thank you Lab mem.
Actually I literally experienced Steins;gate irl and lost brain in the process. Well, Steins;gate without dmail and time leap machine

How'd you experience it irl? Would definitely like to know more, if you felt like sharing here or privately.

 

[Life sucks]

How'd you experience it irl? Would definitely like to know more, if you felt like sharing here or privately.

Can't say the whole thing because it requires a lengthy writing which currently I'm incapable of.

I'll say as abstract concepts.

Arbitrarily large amount of coincidences leading to an event which is the same as convergence/divergence. Sudden and extreme change and shock. Time loop and repeating same day (although technically different). And more things but all in a single worldline

There is more but that's what I remember now

 

[CommitSudoku]

Can't say the whole thing because it requires a lengthy writing which currently I'm incapable of.

I'll say as abstract concepts.

Arbitrarily large amount of coincidences leading to an event which is the same as convergence/divergence. Sudden and extreme change and shock. Time loop and repeating same day (although technically different). And more things but all in a single worldline

There is more but that's what I remember now

If you ever feel capable of writing more or just want to write about it, please hit me up. Thank you for the abstract explanation.

 

[FuneralCry]

In this life, many people are disadvantaged through no fault of their own. It is all very unfair. Life is such an unnecessary, pointless experience and more than anything I wish that I never existed.

 

[Life sucks]

Honestly, I agree. It's a pretty controversial take but I've come to believe that "free will" as we tend to believe it is absolutely an illusion created by our conscious brains. We're just molecules in motion, our behavior completely determined by our genes and our past, which in turn are completely determined by factors before them. It's just a cruel joke that we have a consciousness tacked on top of all that inevitable suffering.

Exactly, it's like a 0 player game

If you have severe trauma, you remember every little thing that shaped your life and turned it into the hell that it is.

What I meant is even smallest and forgettable things could shape everything later

Alll my problems except my sister can be traced back to going to the elementary school I did and meeting the miserable fucks I did. It's kind of funny that if I had gone anywhere else my life would probably be much better or it could be worse! Either way it didn't work out and I'm suffering every single fucking day because of it

I'm sorry, life is cruel and unfortunately there is only one chance. It's sad how one or two events shape everything later without the ability to change

If you ever feel capable of writing more or just want to write about it, please hit me up. Thank you for the abstract explanation.

Thank you, I'll try when possible

In this life, many people are disadvantaged through no fault of their own. It is all very unfair. Life is such an unnecessary, pointless experience and more than anything I wish that I never existed.

Thank you, life is an unfair and cruel flow