OvertheRainbeaux
stuck down a rabbit hole of misery
- Jan 1, 2020
- 43
I been thinking a lot lately about this, maybe it's just another form of self-pity that I'm ashamed of & don't really talk about in my personal life but I feel REALLY bad for the person I could have became.
key words could have.
I feel so badly because I know that I could have been someone special, and helped the world in some way whether big or small. But now I'm just a large sack of depressed nothing. I like to imagine that this might change & maybe that version of me that I long for will come to fruition but I've been wanting this my whole life & it hasn't happened. Probably time to accept the fact that it never will.
a child must have been raised in the best emotional circumstance in order for them to be a valuable person to themselves, others, and society. But unfortunately I've been beat down since childhood so my brain is all f**cked up. Oh well I'll get over it.
key words could have.
I feel so badly because I know that I could have been someone special, and helped the world in some way whether big or small. But now I'm just a large sack of depressed nothing. I like to imagine that this might change & maybe that version of me that I long for will come to fruition but I've been wanting this my whole life & it hasn't happened. Probably time to accept the fact that it never will.
a child must have been raised in the best emotional circumstance in order for them to be a valuable person to themselves, others, and society. But unfortunately I've been beat down since childhood so my brain is all f**cked up. Oh well I'll get over it.
