The time has come (after ~3 months)

[ornitier199]

So today I just got the anticipated email of long. How this goes will determine my end being brutal suicide or not due to the impulse that would undergo my suicide if nothing comes of it
CEDS will be the breaking point of suicide for me. This I've known for months leading up to this point.
Guess we'll see how it goes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful and horrible. I wish you relief from suffering in whatever happens.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I hadn't heard of CEDS before today, but I'm guessing you're talking about the genetic disorder that affects the immune system, right? If so, it sounds rough. Having a rare disease like that makes it a lot harder for it to be treated, so I'm sorry that you're going through this.

If only we didn't have to live in a world with diseases in the first place, genetic or otherwise, then maybe you wouldn't be in this situation. I wish you the best @ornitier199