The thought of leaving my brothers.

[hankbank3928]

I have two brothers that I am very close with. So much so, that the thought of leaving them makes me sick because I know it would crush them. But I cannot keep living with schizophrenia/depression/insomnia, I simply do not wish to suffer any longer. I wish there was a way to convince them that CTB is the best option for me but that is impossible.

What do I do? Keep on living just for the sake of other people or do I CTB ("selfishly")?

 

[FuneralCry]

After all, it is your life and your decision so therefore only you know what is best for yourself. It would be selfish for others to expect us to suffer for decades. I could personally never suffer for the sake of others, it would be unbearable but I know it can be difficult leaving others behind. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Justsogone]

I have three brothers, and I'm usually close with them, so that I can't help you or advice you something, just the thought that I will leave them behind makes me so blue. But on the other hand, it does not has any sense to get on with this meaningless life, the only thing I'd say you is that it's up to us, even though this can sound selfish but I don't think that at all. It's not selfishness.
I hope You feel okay after all, hugs friend

 

[hankbank3928]

I have three brothers, and I'm usually close with them, so that I can't help you or advice you something, just the thought that I will leave them behind makes me so blue. But on the other hand, it does not has any sense to get on with this meaningless life, the only thing I'd say you is that it's up to us, even though this can sound selfish but I don't think that at all. It's not selfishness.
I hope You feel okay after all, hugs friend

I'm thinking of just leaving them a detailed note about my meaningless life, hopefully that will smooth it over. Thnx for reply.

 

[LastFlowers]

I have two brothers that I am very close with. So much so, that the thought of leaving them makes me sick because I know it would crush them. But I cannot keep living with schizophrenia/depression/insomnia, I simply do not wish to suffer any longer. I wish there was a way to convince them that CTB is the best option for me but that is impossible.

What do I do? Keep on living just for the sake of other people or do I CTB ("selfishly")?

I have to say I envy your closeness with your siblings, mine would probably use my corpse as a doormat for the people they actually care about to wipe their boots on.

I wish the conversation you imply-to convince them-wouldn't be such a taboo, people should be allowed to give their loved ones fair warning without having to worry about being locked up, there should be room for saying goodbye and maybe making the most of some last moments together, but of course, this is usually reserved for those who are terminally ill, not suicidal for other reasons which have to remain unspoken.

Are your brothers the type who would not understand or who would try to prevent you from going through with it?
Do you think there is any chance at all they could realize that it's about ending your suffering, not about leaving them behind?
Have you ever attempted to broach the subject whatsoever?
I know a handful of people here have somehow managed to do so, but I realize it's usually not possible.

 

[hankbank3928]

After all, it is your life and your decision so therefore only you know what is best for yourself. It would be selfish for others to expect us to suffer for decades. I could personally never suffer for the sake of others, it would be unbearable but I know it can be difficult leaving others behind. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Suffering for the sake of others is the worst trapped feeling. Thnx for reply.

I have to say I envy your closeness with your siblings, mine would probably use my corpse as a doormat for the people they actually care about to wipe their boots on.

I wish the conversation you imply-to convince them-wouldn't be such a taboo, people should be allowed to give their loved ones fair warning without having to worry about being locked up, there should be room for saying goodbye and maybe making the most of some last moments together, but of course, this is usually reserved for those who are terminally ill, not suicidal for other reasons which have to remain unspoken.

Are your brothers the type who would not understand or who would try to prevent you from going through with it?
Do you think there is any chance at all they could realize that it's about ending your suffering, not about leaving them behind?
Have you ever attempted to broach the subject whatsoever?
I know a handful of people here have somehow managed to do so, but I realize it's usually not possible.

My brothers would definitely try to prevent me from going through with it. It would take a very deep, long conversation to get them to change their mind and that conversation, to me, seems like it would be impossible and would just end up with me in a psych ward. I have never attempted to broach that subject but you made me curious if that would work or not. Although, it seems to risky to me.

 

[LoneMisery]

I feel thats the only reason i stay around. My one and only brother and a few friends. Its the worst feeling in the world but i agree i cant keep suffering either