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kinderbueno

kinderbueno

Waiting at the bus stop
Jun 22, 2024
261
The thought of being gone forever is comforting. I've never done anything which has had a positive impact on anyone, all I do is cause pain and destruction. Even my parents told me that all I do is bring them pain. I don't really want to live anymore, I've never helped anyone, never been a benefit to society, all I do is end up hurting people whenever i get close to them. I crave death so badly every single fucking day, for years I've been stuck in this state of anhedonia. I've tried recovery before, it's never worked. If I live then I will just be a drain to society
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,657
I also find so much comfort in never existing again, in my case permanent non-existence is certainly all I've ever wished for. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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Ramsay Fiction

Ramsay Fiction

Soulburner
Aug 15, 2024
58
Death has been a fascination of mine for a long time. It works itself into all of my writing. Symbolism everywhere. It seems so quiet. So freeing. I am comforted that no matter what, it WILL come for me one day.
 
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kinderbueno

kinderbueno

Waiting at the bus stop
Jun 22, 2024
261
Death has been a fascination of mine for a long time. It works itself into all of my writing. Symbolism everywhere. It seems so quiet. So freeing. I am comforted that no matter what, it WILL come for me one day.
That's how I feel, even if I don't manage to successfully ctb by hanging I'll find a way
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
I'm very sorry about your situation. I hope that you in some way find relief from all pain and suffering.
 
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Manfrotto99

Specialist
Oct 10, 2023
342
I totally get the thought of being gone is so very comforting but what kind of parents tell there child all you did was being them pain. That's something my narcissistic farther told me all my life, along with how useless and lazy I am. He should never of had children. He installed in me such as sense of failure and low self worth that it became a fulfilling prophecy and I was unable to function in this dog eat dog society. I believed for most of my life that I was a burden on my parents and on society. Even if it is too late for you like it is for me, dont end this life feeling like you are totally to blame because I am sure you are not.
 

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